I've broken everything I've ever had just to be happy, and new things pop up to make me crumble ( Read more... )

There's a sense of longing in me ( Read more... )

Over the past few days I couldn't resist that heavy thinking that I had coming. Yes, I thought and I thought and I can admit it and I have admitted to a few. I actually 'like' someone, which is something that hasn't happened in years. If I've read her as well as I thought I have, she is what I've been looking for the whole time, which is ( Read more... )

So the last few days have been...interesting. One of the best things about it has been that I haven't been in Shelbyville, and the fact that NO ONE has called my phone in the last few days. It's freaking amazing. I haven't even recieved a text message ( Read more... )

I'm rather confused as to how I'm going to stay awake through work tomorrow...and then take Brandi shopping. If I go to bed, I'm liable to sleep right through work, which I can't let that happen my last day on my vacation, because I'm not that stupid. I don't know, my plans were tonight were after I woke up at 11 (who knows why I woke up so early ( Read more... )

After working 13 days straight, I'm finally getting 1 day off, which more than likely I'll get called in but still...I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. All I want to do anymore is work...yet I'm so tired; so fatigued. But there is nothing else to do, everyone that wants to spend time with me I just don't really feel like spending time ( Read more... )

I think I have had a nervous breakdown this week, and for some reason I think that is a good thing. So many thoughts have ran through my head this week, and they are all happy, positive thoughts. In the past few days I have completely confused Tisha with my attitude, Brandi probably doesn't even care to know me anymore because of how strange I've ( Read more... )

"I saw a creature. He sat and he held his heart in his hands and he ate of it. I asked him, 'Is it good, friend?' He said, 'It Is bitter...bitter. But I like it because it is bitter. Because it is my heart.'"

Drugged up on percocets, I really get to thinking. Maybe I don't know what I want neither. Between Tasha always keeping my head curious, and Brandi asking her friends how she should lead her life, I don't know what to do. I slept with Jess last night and it disgusted me. It really made me sick, like I had done something horribly wrong, even ( Read more... )

Yesterday morning Brandi called me to break up with me. From the sounds of it I was her longest standing relationship, and she really didn't even get anything out of me...so she has no clue what she's missing out on. It's a pitty too, I really kinda liked that one. Her mind was rather fun to tinker with. The celebacy was much to be desired, but ( Read more... )