Things Sometimes Suck; Amber killed a turtle today
You ever feel like you just want to get away? Like you can't stand being around certain people anymore, can't stand how ignorant and closed minded people can be? Does it ever feel like it's just a pointless battle that will never end unless you just give up because there is no way the other side will concede? Yet, you can't bring yourself to give up because you feel like you get absolutely no respect and getting your point across is the only way you can finally get respect? Sometimes I just wish that my family would stop treating me like I'm a bad person just because they don't always agree with me. I wish that other people in my life would stop trying to force things on me that I don't agree with, and when I don't agree I wish they wouldn't act like children and try to villainize me.
I'm stuck in a situation I don't want to be in right now, but I always try to make the best of it. I only have a few more months until I'm out of here, and I can go back to living my life again. Sometimes I just shut them off because I can't stand their arrogance and ignorance, but then they think I'm an ass because I'm in my own world. I can't wait to get out of here. I really hate that damn Hurricane Ivan.
Well, now that I have that off my chest, I'd like to share something I just recently wrote.
I've been here before
Fighting with myself
Love is on the verge
Ready to rise
Like a leafless tree at sunset
Pulling the sun from the heavens
The pain's memory returns
Ready to stop it
Your power over me makes the pain stronger
Vulnerable if I let you
But further away if not
Can I do it this time
Can I let myself love you?
Should I?
Every breath a question
Every beat of my heart
A tick of a clock
Counting the time until I hide myself again
Will I ever open again?
To you or any?
Frightening
I come close
But away I go
Your little daggers at me cause no pain
Fear comes though
My shield
Fear
I want to love you
I want to allow myself the chance
I can't
Will I ever?
Love escapes me now
As it has for ages
One day in time
The sun will rise
One day
I'm stuck in a situation I don't want to be in right now, but I always try to make the best of it. I only have a few more months until I'm out of here, and I can go back to living my life again. Sometimes I just shut them off because I can't stand their arrogance and ignorance, but then they think I'm an ass because I'm in my own world. I can't wait to get out of here. I really hate that damn Hurricane Ivan.
Well, now that I have that off my chest, I'd like to share something I just recently wrote.
I've been here before
Fighting with myself
Love is on the verge
Ready to rise
Like a leafless tree at sunset
Pulling the sun from the heavens
The pain's memory returns
Ready to stop it
Your power over me makes the pain stronger
Vulnerable if I let you
But further away if not
Can I do it this time
Can I let myself love you?
Should I?
Every breath a question
Every beat of my heart
A tick of a clock
Counting the time until I hide myself again
Will I ever open again?
To you or any?
Frightening
I come close
But away I go
Your little daggers at me cause no pain
Fear comes though
My shield
Fear
I want to love you
I want to allow myself the chance
I can't
Will I ever?
Love escapes me now
As it has for ages
One day in time
The sun will rise
One day