Comments | jdvancamp: two new entries

jdvancamp

two new entries

Feb 18, 2009 01:28

I made a couple previously private entries, not private. So anyone interested can go investigate these previously hidden posts.

I don't think it makes a difference anymore if they can be read by people or not. No one is going to comment or care anyways... that actually really really depresses me, to the point where I may stop using this thing.

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_fancypants_ February 18 2009, 19:59:26 UTC

I read and care about what you write, but if you want people to read it, or know it exists for that matter, you have to advertise it. But either way, whether people read it or not, I think it's healthy to get your thoughts out. Sometimes, when I'm really upset about it I'll write it out, and when I go back and read it, it seems trivial, or not as bad as it was in my head. Not that I'm saying what you're writing about isn't a big deal, but I think you know what I mean. It just helps to gain perspective.

jdvancamp February 19 2009, 01:58:19 UTC

I appreciate you taking the time to read my posts. I'm not sure even if I told people about this thing more that they'd still care to read it ( ... )

markwaters February 19 2009, 11:59:48 UTC

Love is about selflessness, Jon. It is not about who you are, what you look like, your potential, your shortcomings or any combination of any of them. It is giving another person everything you have and not expecting anything in return. I believe that it is a concept that transcends human precedent -- and that is why so many relationships and marriages are doomed to fail ( ... )

jdvancamp February 19 2009, 15:48:20 UTC

I had a response cooked up to what you said Mark because there's a lot of insight in it... but in the end I decided that I don't actually know if I meant what I was saying. You're completely right about the lack of permanence in life... because I don't know what I think or how I feel from day to day, sometimes from hour to hour ( ... )

markwaters February 19 2009, 22:46:12 UTC

You go through the routine because that is what there is to do. You're in college, you have opportunities, you're healthy and alive and there are no reasons not to just take that step forward. It's your attitude that will shape your reasoning in the years to come.

jdvancamp February 19 2009, 23:17:10 UTC

I guess. It's not a very appealing prospect at this point still. I'm hoping that maybe some counseling will help my perspective/attitude about things.

When I believe in that what I am doing is right, I can always envision the future in some way... even if it's not a realistic depiction of how things will be. I can't envision my own future anymore (or at least not a future I want), and that kind of sends me a strong signal that something is out of place. It could very well just be my attitude that needs adjusting and not anything in my life, but I need to figure this thing out.

Perhaps just giving in and taking medication is the solution right now. I have always avoided it in the past, but I dunno.

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