Jin's B-day 'Secret Gift'
Title: one thing could change everything.
Pairing: RyoJin
Rating: pg-13
Genre: angst and angst and angst.
Disclaimer: Own nothing but the plot.
Warning: absolutely un-betaed, horrible fic, wrote this in a horrible mood so it had became horrible.
Summary: Jin got a new boyfriend and Ryo-chan don't like it one bit.
Author's note: This is fic is for je_hottestlove's Jin's B-day 'secret gift' and dedicated to kindof_sweet kindof_sweet . Sorry for this horrible, unworthy to be read fic.
Ryo-chan has been avoiding me... It started around New Years. Whenever I tried to talk to him, he would make some excuses to go away or answer in really short sentences like a simple 'no' or 'don't think so'. He also hangs out with me lesser nowadays. But thats's the thing! He always hangs out with Yamapi only nowadays! And when I sat beside them to join the conversation, Ryo-chan would leave... I can't tell you how heart broken I was by it...
Pi said to not think to strongly about it but how can't I? My best friend is avoiding me! You know what, I think it's because he doesn't like my boyfriend Ueda Tatsuya... I started dating him on New Years when my resolution was to confess to him. And fortunately, he said yes. I was so happy but then, Ryo-chan started avoiding me. I think it is becaue of Tat-chan. They never got along in the beginning anyways.
But I don't get it. Why doesn't he like him? Tat-chan is sweet and caring and whenever did anything bad to Ryo-chan. I asked him about it and Ryo-chan said tohat his looks is what annoys him. Something about Tat-chan aura...
"JIN!" a lout shout was heard. I always slipped from my seat. I look around and saw Pi beside me.
"Pi! What the hell were you doing? You surprised me and almost made me deaf!"
"well, I called you like ten times already but you haven't respond to me at all. What were you thinking about?"
"ohh... About Ryo-chan."
He sighed " don't worry about it."
I glared at him. "don't worry about it? Pi, he's literally avoiding me!"
"I kind of get how he feels..." Yamapi muttered silently but I heard it and stared at him surprised.
"Pi, do you know why Ryo is avoiding me? Pi, if you know something tell me!"
"I can't. It's personal. I can't tell you at all. if you want to know, ask him yourself..."
"but how can I when he is avoiding me?" I said with sarcasm.
He sighed. "listen, just try talking to him. But don't push the matter to far and don't worry, everything will be back to normal. Just give it sometime." I doubt that time will solve it. I'm just worried that I did something bad and it's hurting Ryo-chan bad...
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"Jin, we need to talk." Tat-chan said as he arrived at the cafe that we were meeting.
"What?" I said and was about to peck him on the lips when he pulled away. I stared at him surprised. "what's the matter Tat-chan?"
He sighed and stared at me seriously. "I want to break up."
Surprised was an understatement to my reaction. Our relationship were progressing really great And I thought it would work. "why!? What did I do wrong?"
"Nothing wrong? You mean you didn't tell your Nishikido friend to make my life a living Hell?"
I was surprised "What?"
He glared at me "don't play dumb! I was paired with him in Science class and he kept skipping our meeting for the project and I had to do it by myself and on the due date of our project, he completely destroyed it. Now, thanks to him, I failed my class and
my parent's are shipping me off because this was their last straw of my bad grades!"
Ryo-chan did that? "Tat-chan, listen. I ask nothing of that to happen and maybe there's a reason for Ryo-chan to do something like that..."
He picked up my glass and threw the water to my face. "Liar! He told me himself that you asked him to do something to make me break up with you because you are getting tired of me. If you hate me that much, just told it to my face yourself instead of making my life from now on a living Hell! I'm getting shipped off tonight and good for you, you don't have to see me anymore!" he stood up and left but not before I saw the hurt in his eyes and the tears that were falling. I quickly got up and ran after him.
He was running to so it was hard for me to catch him but I managed to catch his arm. "Tat-chan please, listen to me. I did not ask him to do it. I'm sorry" and I hugged him. He was trembling. He clutched on my shirt and cried on my shoulder. "i love you"
"don't" he said. "it's over anyways. I'm moving and there's nothing that will change my parent's mind" he look into my eyes and I saw love in there. He leaned in and we kissed.
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"Ryo-chan! I need to talk to you!" I said as soon as I saw him. I just got back from sending Tat-chan off at the airport.
He look up from his book and stared at me with a poker face "what?"
I grabbed his collar and punch him.
"whoa! What the he'll are you doing Jin?!" Pi said as he tried to prevent me from attacking Ryo more.
"just asked the bastard himself! It's his fault thatTat-chan moved!" I said as I tried to punch him again. I heard Ryo-chan laugh a bit and it made the vein on my head bigger.
"so he is finally out of here huh?"
"YOU BASTARD!"
"Okay, that's it! You two come here" Pi said as he dragged us to an empty room for us to fight. "settle your problems here! and don't go out until you settle it!" he yelled and went out the door while closing it with a slam.
I sigh and Ryo-chan just sat on a chair. I stared at his expressionless face and wondered, what the hell happened...
"Ryo-chan, tell me, why did you do it? Why did you deliberately destroyed the project and caused Tat-chan to be ship off to another country and why are you avoiding me?"
"I don't want to answer something that you already know the answer to"
"I don't know! That's the fuck why I'm asking you!!!!!!!!"
I tried to control my emotions while he just stared at nothing. "why did you pick him and not me?"
"what?"
"do you remember when we were 14? I confessed to you, told you I loved you, told you everything of how I felt about you. But you rejected me. I was hurt. Felt like everything was over. It was the end. The end of my life, the end of humanity, the end of the world. I think that there was no reason for me to live anymore." I stared at him, surprised. I remembered but it had disappeared from my mind. I wouldn't remember it if he hadn't said it.
"but I got hope when you said that if you were gay, I would be the first one you'd come too." he stopped to wiped the tears from his eyes. I just noticed the tears. "so I did many things to give you hints that I loved you. Then, at the New Years party, you confessed your love to that donkey face. I was hurt deeply when you announced your relationship." he moved his sight to mind. I saw hurt, disbelievement, pain but the strongest of all, love.
"why...? You promised that you would come to me when you're gay. But why did you go to him? I started to despised you both but mostly him. I wanted to do anything that would sure to hurt that donkey. And I glad I did it. And sadly for you" he said while his gaze never leaving mine. He stood up and stopped in front of me " I don't regret it one bit" and he kissed me. His lips were soft and I felt the tears falling to our kiss. In the kiss, I felt all the bitterness. Felt of how he must be feeling. Without notice, tears fell from my eyes too. I'm stupid. Everyone has said it lots of time but I didn't believe it. But now I do. I am the stupidest guy in the world. I should permanently change my name to Bakanishi.
Ryo started to put his arms around my neck but I pushed him away. I don't deserve his love and I never will. "sorry" I muttered and ran out of there which also became the last time Ryo saw me for a while.
I locked myself in my apartment for a week already. Today is my birthday, 4th of July. All I do is drink. My facial hair is also a bit long for not shaving in a week. Ryo had leave me many missed calls and messages which I haven't replied to at all. Pi also have tried to contact me. He even came to my place but I wouldn't open it.
My phone is ringing but I don't want to answer it. It's Ryo. But I want to apologized to him. I clicked a button and put it to my ear.
"Jin?! Thank god! You finally answered" he's crying "Jin I'm so sorry if I hurt you. Please don't die from me. I miss you" I heard him as he desperately tried to talk to me.
"it's not your fault Ryo... It's mine. I'm stupid and I hurt you. I'm sorry..."
"No! You did nothing wrong! It's mine! I'm sorry if I h-hurt you! I'll e-even apologized to Ueda if you want." I could hear him hiccuping.
"Ryo-chan, I love you" I could hear his breath caught in his throat but I quickly continued. "but I don't deserve you. I'm an idiot. I hurt you so many times without realizing it. If I didn't confess to Tatsuya, than I won't hurt you. We wouldn't be in this situation and any of us, wouldn't be hurt. Ryo-chan, I really loved you but I'm stupid, that's why I didn't notice it. Ryo, I'm so so sorry."
"NO! Don't tell me that you love me but we can't be together. I love you and you love me! Please Jin, give me a chance! Give us a chance? Please! I beg of you!" he was sobbing hysterically by now." I can't believe he would forgive me. I don't deserve it but I know, I can't let him go.
"Ryo-chan, where are you?"
I heard him as he steady his breath and than he said "open you door" I quickly got up and rushed to my front door. I opened it, and there he was, tears-streaked face and red eyes with a phone in his hand. I smiled and pulled him into my arms. "I love you and I'm never letting you" and I just held him in my arms while we're both crying. And what I said is true. I'm never letting him go. Ever again.
The end of this horrible fic that doesn't make sense....