eh i have so much going on in my head right now i dont even know where to start...im so confused about everything, half of my feelings i cant even explain, the other half im to scared to show or say. i honestly hate life sometimes, why can't it ever be easy? i just need a break ( Read more... )

hmm i wrote this longg entry last night but my very old stupid computer decided to freeze so it is now lost so now ill give a brief summary cause i dont feel like typing everything again lol ( Read more... )

hmm today i slept till 11 and went to work at 12, i really didnt want to be there but it wasnt that bad of a day. it was kinda busy but i didnt do to much, which i probably should have lol oh well. after work i went tanning and i must say it was a bad idea im uh really burned, so i wont be going again anytime soon. after that me and mike made a ( Read more... )

i havent updated in a while, there really hasnt been much to say and i've been in a blah kind of mood lately ( Read more... )

today was an effing snow day which was awesome cause school absolutely sucks! now on snow days the typical highschool student would sleep late...well not me i woke up at 9ish to my phone ringing, it was my mom calling her car got stuck in the snow. so i went outside to go shovel her out, did she help no not at all she complained the whole time, it ( Read more... )

these last few days i've been in this really weird mood. i could honestly cry at any moment, about anything. I think it's because when i get stressed or aggravated i hold it all in and ignore it. i can't keep doing this cause im a total mess ( Read more... )

yesterday afternoon i went out to lunch with mike, doug, and nathan. then i forgot about my doctors appt. so i rushed home to go to that. i wasnt in the best mood when i got home, kinda depressed, hence the recent lj entry lol. later that night i went to go see the movie cursed with doug, nathan, mike, kristen and lauren. It was kind of funny ( Read more... )

okay so im reading a friends live journal and it goes on to say thats she's completely happy with her life and is thankful for everything/everyone and life is good. she's finally found who she is and she loves it. i'm so happy for her and i think that's awesome! but it made me realize that i cant say that about myself. I'm not happy with my life ( Read more... )

today was pretty boring i must say. i had to babysit till 12, in which ruined my plans of going tanning in the morning. my shopping plans fell through with lindsay and lauren but another day would probably be better anyways considering i have no money to spend lol. Later in the evening me and my love douglas hung out for a while, i love hanging ( Read more... )

hmm holly wow i havent updated this in quite some time, where so i begin! uhh well ill do a quick recap of this week... saturday=work 1-6 which ended up being 1-7 yes i stayed later because jody asked me to and for some reason i cant say no, i think its a problem i have hmm, anywho i came home and had to watch my sister and her friend cause my dad ( Read more... )