god damn

[jellybean2815]

so tired now..so exhausted. so sick and tired of the bullshit im getting pulled through. yes life sucks, yes life is hell...but how long do i honestly need to get tortured???? is there actually any hope for me to heal..for me to move on from the hell that i was slapped with. i thought the people i loved the most, i thought the people i considered

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[love_live_learn]

believe it or not.
I am going through those things (the 2nd paragraph)
and i know exactlt how you feel
One day youre so close to someone
youd do anything for them
ttime passes by, they change you dont
but its not a slight change
its drastic
and you dont know hw to get that far ahead
then you just give up
youve tried everything
youre willing, theyre not

ya..

[jellybean2815]

ya well i dont understand why? i jsut dont see how someone can do that.. i just dont get how they can change so much...i dont see how they can just one day do this.. i want to change but i can't.. i am me. i can't change me..even though that is all i want in the world right now. its just so unfair how you get stuck with all the emotions..

-valari

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[love_live_learn]

you do get stuck with the emotions. it sucks
my friend and i were unbelievably close
then he just drifted away out of nowhere
I cant change
I try everyday to be better, but it's not that easy
youcan only go as far as your limits
you dont need to change Valari, youre a wonderful person
you'll get through this.
I promise

Re: ya..

[jellybean2815]

to bad i can't believe in myself enough to believe i can get through this.. im just sick of the hurt.. im just sick of believing in something that is never real.. but i wonder if it is never going to be true and i am always dragged down by it..than why do i keep falling for my same mistakes??? wouldn't i learn the 1st 500 times? i dont get what keeps me back so much with the past? i just sometimes wish it never existed and i can just say fuck you and mean it with such a passion and show im in charge for once...im just so exhausted from it all

-valari