alrighty then.. jsut great

[jellybean2815]

alright, new plan...once again.. yes i know i keep changing my plans and i will until i find something that actually works.
new plan::
-keep everything as positive as i can
-lie to myself to keep myself on the positive side
-move on no matter how much i

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[love_live_learn]

oh my lord...
your last paragraph... the ExaCT smae thing happened to me.
And i swear to God I feel the exact same way!
I cry 24/7 and My moods are sooo unpredicatble, i wnat to be happy,but im not and to soem extent i dont veen know how to be
i feel really weak and never eat
i dontw nat to go back on meds...i hate them, not taking them but knowing i have to so i can be 'decent'
I will flip out on people over nothing, and not even think twice then feel bad afterwards.
all iw ant is to be happy too...thats all

[jellybean2815]

im sure alot of people feel the same, i mean we all have depression but i am done feeling this way now, i have started a new life, i have someone who i am dating and adam is now out of the picture for once i told him i dont want nothing but friends and friends is what we are now..i dont want mind games so i am now have made up my mind to start fresh with someone who is interested in me and who actually wants me.
and i have friends who always invites me plaes and keeps me in good mood and no drama bullshit and right there is good. new boy, new friends, and my grades are finally going up, i am going back on meds for anxiety and maybe that'll help with depression..i just want to be happy and i dont care if i have to pretend because i no longer want to feel depressed. i know my limit and i past it.. now i just need to live life as i should.. having fun and being happy with few complications here and there.
but i hope you find your way, i am for sure on my way!
-valari

[love_live_learn]

thanx Val

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[jellybean2815]

no prob lins.
-valari