Solo
Title: Solo
Author: Jemnise
Pairing: GRi
Disclaimer: never will be mine -___-
A/N: wow i can't imagine, i broke my own words. daaaang. i told oxygenlove that i'll give her the right to ruin my GTOP as she writes GRI pssssssssssh. but yea, this is like, WTH? I am like pissed a while ago so i dunno, kinda' affected this little something. -___________-
Forgive me and stay with me.
How he wanted to utter those words. Words that almost-always slips out of his lips but never actually did. He wanted to say that countless times, he wanted to say with all sincerity.
He just wanted to say that and maybe really stay together forever.
But how can he? How can he possibly say it when he moved on?
When he doesn't feel the same anymore? when he subtly pushes him away.
When he find him such a bore? When all he wanted to do is to be with Dae.
When he sticks like glue to Bae? When he locks his room when he's with TOP?
He should have seen this one coming.He should have known beforehand that there's this kind of possibility.
Strangers to Friends, Friends to Lovers, and when the love dies down, Lovers go back to being practically Strangers again.
The love didn't die down. He blew the fire that once was burning. He faltered, he gave up, he let him down and pushed him more that he is six feet under the ground. That's how much he hurt him, so much that he doesn't want to even look at him. Yet he stays, and he told him to stay. He said that no one could leave until death takes them away.
Big Bang is Big Bang.
One goes away, everything will fall apart.
How he wanted to go away, he wanted to run away and hide from him but he can't. Contradictions filled his brain, hurt flooded his heart. Things will never be the same yet Kwon Ji Yong wanted him to stay.
He wants to stay, yet he wants to leave.
He wants to move forward, yet he's glued to his hyung.
"SeungRi-ah, you messed up once again" it was calm. Wasn't scolding, indifferent, as if a robot is talking to him that time,not JiYong.
He just bowed his head and for a second let JiYong just walk away, like he usually does after their conversation which consists of one liners. However, this time, his hand took over his sanity. He held his wrist as he tries to stop himself from tearing up.
"What?" Indifference hurts more than anything else.
"Hyung... mianhe" his eyes were staring at his hyung's shoes as tears continuously fall from his eyes.
"You've said that countless times SeungRi. Enough" With that, Ji pulled his hand away from the boy and walked away. When he reached the door knob, as if on cue, he turned to meet the boy's gaze which had been staring at him the moment his feet started moving.
"I waited. And still waiting... but i guess I had enough. Don't worry SeungRi-ah, you'll get your shot now. Everybody's going solo"
Author: Jemnise
Pairing: GRi
Disclaimer: never will be mine -___-
A/N: wow i can't imagine, i broke my own words. daaaang. i told oxygenlove that i'll give her the right to ruin my GTOP as she writes GRI pssssssssssh. but yea, this is like, WTH? I am like pissed a while ago so i dunno, kinda' affected this little something. -___________-
Forgive me and stay with me.
How he wanted to utter those words. Words that almost-always slips out of his lips but never actually did. He wanted to say that countless times, he wanted to say with all sincerity.
He just wanted to say that and maybe really stay together forever.
But how can he? How can he possibly say it when he moved on?
When he doesn't feel the same anymore? when he subtly pushes him away.
When he find him such a bore? When all he wanted to do is to be with Dae.
When he sticks like glue to Bae? When he locks his room when he's with TOP?
He should have seen this one coming.He should have known beforehand that there's this kind of possibility.
Strangers to Friends, Friends to Lovers, and when the love dies down, Lovers go back to being practically Strangers again.
The love didn't die down. He blew the fire that once was burning. He faltered, he gave up, he let him down and pushed him more that he is six feet under the ground. That's how much he hurt him, so much that he doesn't want to even look at him. Yet he stays, and he told him to stay. He said that no one could leave until death takes them away.
Big Bang is Big Bang.
One goes away, everything will fall apart.
How he wanted to go away, he wanted to run away and hide from him but he can't. Contradictions filled his brain, hurt flooded his heart. Things will never be the same yet Kwon Ji Yong wanted him to stay.
He wants to stay, yet he wants to leave.
He wants to move forward, yet he's glued to his hyung.
"SeungRi-ah, you messed up once again" it was calm. Wasn't scolding, indifferent, as if a robot is talking to him that time,not JiYong.
He just bowed his head and for a second let JiYong just walk away, like he usually does after their conversation which consists of one liners. However, this time, his hand took over his sanity. He held his wrist as he tries to stop himself from tearing up.
"What?" Indifference hurts more than anything else.
"Hyung... mianhe" his eyes were staring at his hyung's shoes as tears continuously fall from his eyes.
"You've said that countless times SeungRi. Enough" With that, Ji pulled his hand away from the boy and walked away. When he reached the door knob, as if on cue, he turned to meet the boy's gaze which had been staring at him the moment his feet started moving.
"I waited. And still waiting... but i guess I had enough. Don't worry SeungRi-ah, you'll get your shot now. Everybody's going solo"