You Make It Real
Title: You make it real
Author: jemnise
Pairing: GD-TOP
Genre: Angst. Fluff (???!). Smut (????!)
Rating: NC17
Summary: left and found again.
A/N: just a try. ROFLMAO XD I've been writing this one for days! I want to show MYSELF that I can write fluff (all because of miraa ) and that I can write smut too! (blame
f_i_x_m_eand aislinoriel ) but yea. fail =.= i dried out my brain already. Oh well. Now I can sleep peacefully ehehehe XD And this was made with James Morrison's song You Make it Real. I got this song from Gost Whisperer and I am obsessing over it now :)
and this gif just made my love for these two stronger ^_______^
There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
You stand in the rain, holding on to one thing and one thing only. One thing that you have been holding onto since day 1, you have been holding since he left you.
Faith.
That he will come back. That he will be back for you, that he will run home. That he will walk back to your home and tell you that it was wrong for him to just leave you like that. That it was wrong for him to just go back to his old person and totally forget about you.
Because he's your everything, because he breathe in life to you. Because he is who he is, the missing puzzle piece of your life that when he left, that piece was gone missing again. That you feel you will never ever be whole again. No matter how you try, you just can never be complete, nor be the same person again.
because he made everything real for you.
When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me
You sit on your chair, stare at the walls of your office, think of the next productive thing you can do for today. You tried and tried, you think and think, but you are flooded with his thoughts.
"Sir, meeting in 5" You finally heard a voice from earth. A voice that keeps you away from thinking of him. A voice that you wanted to own so that it would make you forget everything. but that is not possible. The guy has his lover, and besides you have yours.
"Thanks Mr. Lee" You muttered as you stood up from your chair, fixed your suit, got the folders on your desk and walked to the conference room where men of your level awaits you. Where men who are your kind waits for you, waits for your decision waits for every single thing that you do.
You stand in front of them, gave a fake smile and settled down.
before storming out after 5 minutes.
And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You run, and run more. You can't be this person, you never wanted this. You never wanted to be anywhere near this, but you had to for your dad, for your mom.
However, you're not happy, nor you can ever be happy.
If he can't, or will not go back to you, you will go back to him. If you need to kneel down before him to take you back, you will. You just want to have Choi Seung Hyun back in Kwon Ji Yong's life.
because that explains your very existence.
And so you see him, back in his old, dirty apartment. With those headphones, blasting music that you can hear already. And he was smoking, while writing. He was lost in space, just like the first time you saw him.
he was in that underground club, alone in the corner, looking at the men who just went down the stage as if they were the most famous men on earth when the truth of the matter is, they are just people in the underground scene. But he looks up to them, he is amazed by their talent.
And you were amazed by his child like features. His being naive.His optimism.
His views in life are just amazingly unbelievable for someone like you. Filthy rich man who knows nothing but to go out and have fun, a man who has a drawn future even before he was born. You live for the future, this man defines the present.
And now that you see him again, now that he's in front of you, your world stopped. It was you trapped inside his world, ready to give up everything even when you're not even certain if he'll take you, if he'll be stupid enough to take you back. He left you, and you did nothing because he made his point. You understood the fact that your relationship leads to nowhere. So you did nothing when he walked out of your life.
When your reality left you.
When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa
Your eyes started to tear up the moment he met your gaze. You cannot really decipher what his looks tell, if he's happy, or in shock, or maybe anger? You did nothing when he walked away from your life, when you know you had to.
You wiped away your tears as he stood up, took off his headphones and walked slowly to where you stand.
So slow you feel like its light years before he was able to stand a ruler long away from you.
"What are you doing here?" He asked. Typical. You know why you're standing in that spot, but you weren't able to answer. Answers are in your head but it cannot reach your tongue, your voice was lost in space.
"You have work to do right? Why are you here?" he asked again and this time, you thought of no words, instead you bowed your head,
letting your tears drop from your eyes and the next thing you know is that you're back in his arms. He takes everything of you, he embraces you, your entirety, your soul, each and single part of you.
"Don't answer a stupid question." He muttered as your hands wandered on his back, tracing his outline, outline that you already memorized.
"Can we go back? To who we are, where we've been? I don't belong there SeungHyun..." you whispered, head buried on his chest as he places soft kisses on your hair.
"I never thought you will think of that. I'm sorry I walked out of your life, that was... i thought was right" he confessed.
"It was right, for them. It was wrong for me, for us."
And you know you're back, not just to his arms but to his reality, to your world.
And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You just saw yourself in the same apartment you stayed in for a while now, the apartment that you cleaned up, the place you found your
real home. The bed where you shared love and lust during those nights when you do nothing but share it with him.
"Kiss me Seung Hyun, make me remember I'm yours" You muttered as he grinned, pushing his lips to yours as his hands remained locked with yours. he was holding onto your hands so tight as he deepened the kiss, his tongue exploring your wet cavern as if it was the first time that it came in contact with your mouth.
Everything feels like its happening all over again, for the first time and it makes you jumpy, excited and nervous. And love.
He raised your hands high as you free fall on the bed, him under you as you continue to place soft kisses on his cheeks, his neck, his chest.
"No hands. No hands..." he demanded in his usual sexy, sultry voice.
He let go of you, sat down in front of you, as he took off his shirt, signifies that you have to take your own too. The moment that you lose your pants, he was already naked and it make your cock throbbed with the naked Seung Hyun in sight. You were about to pull your boxers down but he stopped your hand, raised it again and said;
"Time is up, no hands..." he smirked as you just obeyed, hands hold on to the headboard of his bed. He raised his hands up, like he was surrendering as he went down to your tummy, licked it and then took the waistband in his mouth.It was a struggle for him to pull it down, but all the while that he was doing it, you let out soft moans, as your erection is finally released from it seemed to be its cage.
"I.. wanna touch..." you weren't able to continue your words as he took in your length without warning. You just threw your head back on the bed, half screaming; "OH SHIT" You buck your hips upward, causing him to move a little backward, surprised with the gesture. Shockwaves of pleasure travel all throughout your body as his pace grew fast, and then slower, and then slower until he pulled back, placing a soft kiss on the tip of your cock.
He crawled slowly to reach your lips, take your hands into his as he lets friction take over, making both of your bodies swimming in perspiration, your head in total daze.
"Why can't I touch you?" you asked in between kisses. He didn't answer, just wandered around your body, placing kisses, licking each and every part, biting your nipples that he had always been fond of. You feel his cock hard against yours, and it was like a gunshot. A sot of ecstasy ran, swam in your veins. You tried to go away from his hands but he was that strong to stop you even before you can think of the next move.
"I... SeungHyun... god." You whispered and then half yelled as he once again left a trail of kisses from your neck to you chest, to your tummy. His hands, fingers locked with yours, lying on both side of the bed.
You thought he would take in your member again, but he didn't. he went up to meet your gaze, to catch your lips, his weight pressed on yours and you realized, he is not really as heavy as you thought he would be.
"I thought I can take it..." he muttered, eyes almost tearing up. "I thought I can take it, that I can live with only the thought of I love you and you love me." he took a break from his speech as he kissed you. The moment that he lets go of your lips, he continued; "But I can't. I want to have you. I want to touch you, do you want to have me Ji? Can you leave them for you to have me? Cause if you can't, we can stop this, end it like this. If you hold me, there will be no turning back cause I will never let go of you anymore" With that, he let go of your hands slowly while he stares at its direction.
Where it will go? will you push him away? Or will you hold him and never let him go?
You know that when you ran away from the corners of your office, you ran away from the life you have taught to live into.
You held his face and replied; "I would have never gone here without thinking, you always know that I think before I act." And then you let your lips take over the situation. You kissed him hard, tongue fight makes him smirk while kissing. You managed to change your positions, that you're on top now and he's the one underneath you.
"I will make you happy Choi." you whispered before you coated your fingers with lube that had been staring at you ever since you came in to his apartment. It was on his side table and you know very well why, thinking about it makes you chuckle, this man just missed you so damn much.
"2nd time... OH FUCK" he whined as you put second digit in, scissoring him. While your other hand gives SeungHyun's cock some pumping, the other is busy trying to once again open his ass for your member. You try to dig deeper, trying to find his prostate.
"OH FUCK ME HARD THIS TIME BABE" That was the signal. You hear the word fuck everytime you hit that certain spot and so you know that you got him, you just so got his spot. You inserted your third, skinny finger that made him place the palm of his hand on his face, covering it and screaming every now and then. Who will not? He is getting finger fucked while you also does masturbating for him. But its not just him that finds pleasure for all of this. For you, yourself is enjoying this very sight. Your lover, your hyung screaming out of pleasure, naked in front of you, not to mention, you got him in both of your hands.
You got him completely.
You stopped pumping, you slowly took your fingers off his hole as you kissed him for the nth time and whispered;
"I will make sure you will never run away after this. cause you just made sure I am locked in your world" You grinned as you held on to his hips, positioned your cock on his hole and slowly slide inside. You felt him tensed up beneath you, but he was able to wrap his legs around your waist, pushing himself more into you.
"Oh fuck" he muttered. You started moving, but when you saw his face, still struggling and in pain, you stopped and waited for him to adjust. When he did his smirk, you know you have to move. You quickly went through the slow pace as he moves along with you, thrusting in a fast speed.
He lounges forward, sending shockwaves of pleasure to your cock, to each and every part of your body. And you return the favor by doing the same thing, this time you planted kisses to every part that your lips can reach. Including his. And before you let go, you made sure that he hears the words;
"I love you"
Everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shining in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you
You came back to your office just to get your personal belongings, you came back to your home just to get your clothes and some necessities. You just went back to your past life to get everything that you need to start a new one. The one where Choi Seung Hyun is included. You saw disgust in their faces, you hear words of hatred and loathing. Before it scares the hell out of you, before it made you cry at night, think of leaving him. Makes you drink and smoke and maybe forget that everything is happening.
"You leave now, you can never come back" You hear your mother's words over and over again. And then you heard your voice when you answered back.
"At times like this I wonder, you told me when I was a kid that no matter who I become, who I wanted to be, you would still love me. Was that a lie mom?"
You never meant to hurt her, you never meant to say those words. But it had been crazy. You left Choi already, then you got back, and then he left you. He left you because he knows you're in pain, because he doesn't want you to choose him over your mom, because he doesn't want you to hurt your own mother, your own father, your family. He doesn't want you to lose the friends you have.
but you thought: if they are your friends, if they are your family, it might not look right for them, but they would still be there because they are who they are, people who tell you that they love you.
"JiYong, I'm happy for you" And this kid. Just this kid had the guts, had the heart to go up to you in your office and say that he's proud of you.
"Thanks Ri.." You muttered as you look at him in the eyes and replied; "Why can't they just accept it? That I am this kind of person? That I am in love with him?"
"Because they are stupid? Cause they are confined with the tradition that they grew up with? Hyung, YoungBae, my boyfriend has this small school he wants to build, you think you can help him?" The offer was everything you needed, all thanks to this kid.
You walk to the elevator, box in your hand, firm decision in your head and in your heart. You just lost everything a man would die to have, but regrets are nowhere to be found. You even managed to smile at them, people who judged you because of who you are, of who you chose to be with.
"Ready?" Was the word you heard when the doors of the elevator opened, revealing Choi Seung Hyun, ordinary brown leather jacket on top of a black shirt, jeans and chucks, looks so normal but he looks like the most gorgeous in the planet you're standing right now. He knows he doesn't belong and he rub it more to those people and you just can't help but be proud and love him more.
He took the box away from your hands, held it with his right, took your hand with his left.
And before you can even walk past the guard, tears are welling around your eyes.
I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me
You don't know what to do with this life that you are in now. You chose a path to take, a path that is very much different from the one you grew up with. But he's there, he's here, he's everywhere as long as you're present. he never lets go of you, always making sure that you're okay, that the next step you take is the right one. making sure that whatever you do, he's there beside you, supporting and protecting you.
"As soon as the school is up, which is like in a couple months or so... I'll be busy with work again." You said during dinner, chopsticks on your lips, uncertainty pours down from your eyes.
"Ji..." he chuckled and said; "Do you want it or not?"
"I do..." You answered.
"Then you do it. You've invested your money, time with this one. Now you do it okay?" You dropped your chopsticks, took hold of his hand and said;
"I am doing things I never thought I could. Now I am more afraid." Its real. This is real. That what if after all of this, he decides to let you go? that what if he finds a girl, he finds another man? What if's clouded your mind because of the fear.
He caressed your face with his free hand and muttered;
"Ji...we have the present to live in. Sometimes, you just have to disregard the future cause it really looks scary. But I assure you now, that I am here. I will assure you, everyday. Would that be fine?" he chuckled as you took his lips to yours, tasting those lips again and again, a thing you can never really get tired of.
And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me
Author: jemnise
Pairing: GD-TOP
Genre: Angst. Fluff (???!). Smut (????!)
Rating: NC17
Summary: left and found again.
A/N: just a try. ROFLMAO XD I've been writing this one for days! I want to show MYSELF that I can write fluff (all because of miraa ) and that I can write smut too! (blame
f_i_x_m_eand aislinoriel ) but yea. fail =.= i dried out my brain already. Oh well. Now I can sleep peacefully ehehehe XD And this was made with James Morrison's song You Make it Real. I got this song from Gost Whisperer and I am obsessing over it now :)
and this gif just made my love for these two stronger ^_______^
There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
You stand in the rain, holding on to one thing and one thing only. One thing that you have been holding onto since day 1, you have been holding since he left you.
Faith.
That he will come back. That he will be back for you, that he will run home. That he will walk back to your home and tell you that it was wrong for him to just leave you like that. That it was wrong for him to just go back to his old person and totally forget about you.
Because he's your everything, because he breathe in life to you. Because he is who he is, the missing puzzle piece of your life that when he left, that piece was gone missing again. That you feel you will never ever be whole again. No matter how you try, you just can never be complete, nor be the same person again.
because he made everything real for you.
When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me
You sit on your chair, stare at the walls of your office, think of the next productive thing you can do for today. You tried and tried, you think and think, but you are flooded with his thoughts.
"Sir, meeting in 5" You finally heard a voice from earth. A voice that keeps you away from thinking of him. A voice that you wanted to own so that it would make you forget everything. but that is not possible. The guy has his lover, and besides you have yours.
"Thanks Mr. Lee" You muttered as you stood up from your chair, fixed your suit, got the folders on your desk and walked to the conference room where men of your level awaits you. Where men who are your kind waits for you, waits for your decision waits for every single thing that you do.
You stand in front of them, gave a fake smile and settled down.
before storming out after 5 minutes.
And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You run, and run more. You can't be this person, you never wanted this. You never wanted to be anywhere near this, but you had to for your dad, for your mom.
However, you're not happy, nor you can ever be happy.
If he can't, or will not go back to you, you will go back to him. If you need to kneel down before him to take you back, you will. You just want to have Choi Seung Hyun back in Kwon Ji Yong's life.
because that explains your very existence.
And so you see him, back in his old, dirty apartment. With those headphones, blasting music that you can hear already. And he was smoking, while writing. He was lost in space, just like the first time you saw him.
he was in that underground club, alone in the corner, looking at the men who just went down the stage as if they were the most famous men on earth when the truth of the matter is, they are just people in the underground scene. But he looks up to them, he is amazed by their talent.
And you were amazed by his child like features. His being naive.His optimism.
His views in life are just amazingly unbelievable for someone like you. Filthy rich man who knows nothing but to go out and have fun, a man who has a drawn future even before he was born. You live for the future, this man defines the present.
And now that you see him again, now that he's in front of you, your world stopped. It was you trapped inside his world, ready to give up everything even when you're not even certain if he'll take you, if he'll be stupid enough to take you back. He left you, and you did nothing because he made his point. You understood the fact that your relationship leads to nowhere. So you did nothing when he walked out of your life.
When your reality left you.
When my head is strong, but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa
Your eyes started to tear up the moment he met your gaze. You cannot really decipher what his looks tell, if he's happy, or in shock, or maybe anger? You did nothing when he walked away from your life, when you know you had to.
You wiped away your tears as he stood up, took off his headphones and walked slowly to where you stand.
So slow you feel like its light years before he was able to stand a ruler long away from you.
"What are you doing here?" He asked. Typical. You know why you're standing in that spot, but you weren't able to answer. Answers are in your head but it cannot reach your tongue, your voice was lost in space.
"You have work to do right? Why are you here?" he asked again and this time, you thought of no words, instead you bowed your head,
letting your tears drop from your eyes and the next thing you know is that you're back in his arms. He takes everything of you, he embraces you, your entirety, your soul, each and single part of you.
"Don't answer a stupid question." He muttered as your hands wandered on his back, tracing his outline, outline that you already memorized.
"Can we go back? To who we are, where we've been? I don't belong there SeungHyun..." you whispered, head buried on his chest as he places soft kisses on your hair.
"I never thought you will think of that. I'm sorry I walked out of your life, that was... i thought was right" he confessed.
"It was right, for them. It was wrong for me, for us."
And you know you're back, not just to his arms but to his reality, to your world.
And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You just saw yourself in the same apartment you stayed in for a while now, the apartment that you cleaned up, the place you found your
real home. The bed where you shared love and lust during those nights when you do nothing but share it with him.
"Kiss me Seung Hyun, make me remember I'm yours" You muttered as he grinned, pushing his lips to yours as his hands remained locked with yours. he was holding onto your hands so tight as he deepened the kiss, his tongue exploring your wet cavern as if it was the first time that it came in contact with your mouth.
Everything feels like its happening all over again, for the first time and it makes you jumpy, excited and nervous. And love.
He raised your hands high as you free fall on the bed, him under you as you continue to place soft kisses on his cheeks, his neck, his chest.
"No hands. No hands..." he demanded in his usual sexy, sultry voice.
He let go of you, sat down in front of you, as he took off his shirt, signifies that you have to take your own too. The moment that you lose your pants, he was already naked and it make your cock throbbed with the naked Seung Hyun in sight. You were about to pull your boxers down but he stopped your hand, raised it again and said;
"Time is up, no hands..." he smirked as you just obeyed, hands hold on to the headboard of his bed. He raised his hands up, like he was surrendering as he went down to your tummy, licked it and then took the waistband in his mouth.It was a struggle for him to pull it down, but all the while that he was doing it, you let out soft moans, as your erection is finally released from it seemed to be its cage.
"I.. wanna touch..." you weren't able to continue your words as he took in your length without warning. You just threw your head back on the bed, half screaming; "OH SHIT" You buck your hips upward, causing him to move a little backward, surprised with the gesture. Shockwaves of pleasure travel all throughout your body as his pace grew fast, and then slower, and then slower until he pulled back, placing a soft kiss on the tip of your cock.
He crawled slowly to reach your lips, take your hands into his as he lets friction take over, making both of your bodies swimming in perspiration, your head in total daze.
"Why can't I touch you?" you asked in between kisses. He didn't answer, just wandered around your body, placing kisses, licking each and every part, biting your nipples that he had always been fond of. You feel his cock hard against yours, and it was like a gunshot. A sot of ecstasy ran, swam in your veins. You tried to go away from his hands but he was that strong to stop you even before you can think of the next move.
"I... SeungHyun... god." You whispered and then half yelled as he once again left a trail of kisses from your neck to you chest, to your tummy. His hands, fingers locked with yours, lying on both side of the bed.
You thought he would take in your member again, but he didn't. he went up to meet your gaze, to catch your lips, his weight pressed on yours and you realized, he is not really as heavy as you thought he would be.
"I thought I can take it..." he muttered, eyes almost tearing up. "I thought I can take it, that I can live with only the thought of I love you and you love me." he took a break from his speech as he kissed you. The moment that he lets go of your lips, he continued; "But I can't. I want to have you. I want to touch you, do you want to have me Ji? Can you leave them for you to have me? Cause if you can't, we can stop this, end it like this. If you hold me, there will be no turning back cause I will never let go of you anymore" With that, he let go of your hands slowly while he stares at its direction.
Where it will go? will you push him away? Or will you hold him and never let him go?
You know that when you ran away from the corners of your office, you ran away from the life you have taught to live into.
You held his face and replied; "I would have never gone here without thinking, you always know that I think before I act." And then you let your lips take over the situation. You kissed him hard, tongue fight makes him smirk while kissing. You managed to change your positions, that you're on top now and he's the one underneath you.
"I will make you happy Choi." you whispered before you coated your fingers with lube that had been staring at you ever since you came in to his apartment. It was on his side table and you know very well why, thinking about it makes you chuckle, this man just missed you so damn much.
"2nd time... OH FUCK" he whined as you put second digit in, scissoring him. While your other hand gives SeungHyun's cock some pumping, the other is busy trying to once again open his ass for your member. You try to dig deeper, trying to find his prostate.
"OH FUCK ME HARD THIS TIME BABE" That was the signal. You hear the word fuck everytime you hit that certain spot and so you know that you got him, you just so got his spot. You inserted your third, skinny finger that made him place the palm of his hand on his face, covering it and screaming every now and then. Who will not? He is getting finger fucked while you also does masturbating for him. But its not just him that finds pleasure for all of this. For you, yourself is enjoying this very sight. Your lover, your hyung screaming out of pleasure, naked in front of you, not to mention, you got him in both of your hands.
You got him completely.
You stopped pumping, you slowly took your fingers off his hole as you kissed him for the nth time and whispered;
"I will make sure you will never run away after this. cause you just made sure I am locked in your world" You grinned as you held on to his hips, positioned your cock on his hole and slowly slide inside. You felt him tensed up beneath you, but he was able to wrap his legs around your waist, pushing himself more into you.
"Oh fuck" he muttered. You started moving, but when you saw his face, still struggling and in pain, you stopped and waited for him to adjust. When he did his smirk, you know you have to move. You quickly went through the slow pace as he moves along with you, thrusting in a fast speed.
He lounges forward, sending shockwaves of pleasure to your cock, to each and every part of your body. And you return the favor by doing the same thing, this time you planted kisses to every part that your lips can reach. Including his. And before you let go, you made sure that he hears the words;
"I love you"
Everybodies talking in words
I don't understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
Your shining in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you
You came back to your office just to get your personal belongings, you came back to your home just to get your clothes and some necessities. You just went back to your past life to get everything that you need to start a new one. The one where Choi Seung Hyun is included. You saw disgust in their faces, you hear words of hatred and loathing. Before it scares the hell out of you, before it made you cry at night, think of leaving him. Makes you drink and smoke and maybe forget that everything is happening.
"You leave now, you can never come back" You hear your mother's words over and over again. And then you heard your voice when you answered back.
"At times like this I wonder, you told me when I was a kid that no matter who I become, who I wanted to be, you would still love me. Was that a lie mom?"
You never meant to hurt her, you never meant to say those words. But it had been crazy. You left Choi already, then you got back, and then he left you. He left you because he knows you're in pain, because he doesn't want you to choose him over your mom, because he doesn't want you to hurt your own mother, your own father, your family. He doesn't want you to lose the friends you have.
but you thought: if they are your friends, if they are your family, it might not look right for them, but they would still be there because they are who they are, people who tell you that they love you.
"JiYong, I'm happy for you" And this kid. Just this kid had the guts, had the heart to go up to you in your office and say that he's proud of you.
"Thanks Ri.." You muttered as you look at him in the eyes and replied; "Why can't they just accept it? That I am this kind of person? That I am in love with him?"
"Because they are stupid? Cause they are confined with the tradition that they grew up with? Hyung, YoungBae, my boyfriend has this small school he wants to build, you think you can help him?" The offer was everything you needed, all thanks to this kid.
You walk to the elevator, box in your hand, firm decision in your head and in your heart. You just lost everything a man would die to have, but regrets are nowhere to be found. You even managed to smile at them, people who judged you because of who you are, of who you chose to be with.
"Ready?" Was the word you heard when the doors of the elevator opened, revealing Choi Seung Hyun, ordinary brown leather jacket on top of a black shirt, jeans and chucks, looks so normal but he looks like the most gorgeous in the planet you're standing right now. He knows he doesn't belong and he rub it more to those people and you just can't help but be proud and love him more.
He took the box away from your hands, held it with his right, took your hand with his left.
And before you can even walk past the guard, tears are welling around your eyes.
I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me
You don't know what to do with this life that you are in now. You chose a path to take, a path that is very much different from the one you grew up with. But he's there, he's here, he's everywhere as long as you're present. he never lets go of you, always making sure that you're okay, that the next step you take is the right one. making sure that whatever you do, he's there beside you, supporting and protecting you.
"As soon as the school is up, which is like in a couple months or so... I'll be busy with work again." You said during dinner, chopsticks on your lips, uncertainty pours down from your eyes.
"Ji..." he chuckled and said; "Do you want it or not?"
"I do..." You answered.
"Then you do it. You've invested your money, time with this one. Now you do it okay?" You dropped your chopsticks, took hold of his hand and said;
"I am doing things I never thought I could. Now I am more afraid." Its real. This is real. That what if after all of this, he decides to let you go? that what if he finds a girl, he finds another man? What if's clouded your mind because of the fear.
He caressed your face with his free hand and muttered;
"Ji...we have the present to live in. Sometimes, you just have to disregard the future cause it really looks scary. But I assure you now, that I am here. I will assure you, everyday. Would that be fine?" he chuckled as you took his lips to yours, tasting those lips again and again, a thing you can never really get tired of.
And I'm running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me