Oh my heart, I want you to be strong. I need you to be all I believe in.
I may never wake to see tomorrow.
I may never learn to seize the day.

 I need a pet to cuddle with. Suddenly falling asleep is the most miserable thing to me. I am missing so much. I hate the feeling of waking up and knowing there is nobody there to bid you good morning. Everything is a constant reminder.  But I am keeping my head up and working my ass off. I am saving lots of money and being the strong willed person ( Read more... )

 Trying to find a new job. So far I've had two interviews but an offer for a third I turned down. I am really hoping I get a call back soon for my first one. I need a new job so bad. I cannot stand subway any more, yuck. Well other than that I haven't been dong much, getting a new bed! I am sooo excited for that :) 

I have been way out of the loop with updating this thing but I will definately get back into it soon here. Especially since I'm not going to school this fall, I have a job where I work one shitty 7 hour shift a week and my best friends are atleast 2 and 1/2 hours away. Eff that noise. But I guess it's the time I need to finally focus on growing up ( Read more... )

I am a very busy busy girl. I have a feeling I won't have much free time next month and I don't even know my work schedule yet. I am worried but I just need to let loose and have fun. I'll be getting some good stuff in the mail soon, then next friday is warped tour! Hopefully I will get to go shopping with my mom sometime next week ( Read more... )

Things are going good for me and I need to continue to keep that in mind ( Read more... )

Listen kid, you are starting to make me sick..
Everytime I look at you, hear about you, think about you.
You hurt me and wasted so much of my time.

Another note. I'm very happy.. I get paid today, I have today off, I have the house to myself. I have good plans but if they fail I am sure I can find something great to do.

I wanna see you when I wake up.
Cause you look good without makeup.

fires in my backyard and the shit, another one next week? Party all night?
c u ther.

Something my grandma told my mom who told me the other day:
"When you are stuck in a forest you only see the trees around you,
but once you let yourself escape you can see the whole picture."

It helped me.

I'm sick to my stomach and I wish I knew why, I know what is kind of bothering me but I won't be able to let it go yet. I just hate how I can get myself pyhsically sick. It's really something I need to work on ( Read more... )