I’m so filled with emotions right now. I’m up one moment, down the next. I don’t feel like I can keep up with my thoughts and express them clearly. I feel a bit whiny, and yet I also feel like I have a right to these feelings and that they aren’t unworthy of consideration. As I approach parenthood, I’m more upset about my relationship with each ( Read more... )

i feel queezy and i have a headache ( Read more... )

This is creeping me out. Sometime last week (or maybe the week before), a doll appeared on the retaining wall in our courtyard. She's pretty small, can stand up, and has those strange eyes that open and close if you lay her down and then stand her up again. She's right by the entrance to the courtyard, facing the street. You have to pass her ( Read more... )

while i was in texas, my friend came over and dropped off the negatives! *phew!* i was really beginning to wonder if we'd ever get them, and what would happen to our friendship if things didn't change. i've thanked her for getting them to us. however, our interactions have been pretty brief since then, and i do feel a bit like we aren't as ( Read more... )

life has been oh-so-busy since my last entry. i've been to texas to visit my grandparents and to reconnect with my mother. i started working with A-16 and have been offered a raise and a promotion to management. i've been climbing with new coworkers. and i've been keeping up with my monday therapy appointments ( Read more... )

the issue at hand: communication. ( Read more... )

Therapy on Monday: it went really well. I was worried about it just a bit- worried about telling her about my "relapse" because I'd worked so hard to not wallow in that moment of time. But when I started to talk to my therapist, Elizabeth, it felt powerful because I was aware that I'd come so far- so it didn't scare me ( Read more... )

i had a really good job interview for Adventure 16 (an outdoor recreation store with an excellent reputation in the industry and with their customers). they'll call me next week to schedule a second (and final?) interview. looks like they want full-time too. that was a bit more than i wanted to jump into at this point, but i'm completely willing ( Read more... )

me = frustrated.

here's why:( Read more... )

I have my first therapy appointment since last Monday night today. I know we'll discuss that night and it's deep roots in my life. I know it'll be good for me, yet I kind of don't want to because I've been working really hard at not living in that moment. I've put it behind me and I'm feeling better. I've had the opportunity to spend time with ( Read more... )