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jenfromhischool

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Nov 29, 2006 16:47

i have a sneaking suspicion that there is no reason to go on living ( Read more... )

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oneyearago November 29 2006, 23:23:17 UTC

to go on living is always so hard.
where are our milk and cookies?

oneyearago November 29 2006, 23:23:42 UTC

when do YOU appear in the flesh?

jenfromhischool December 3 2006, 20:42:11 UTC

th-th-th-thursday

feeling drastic bakaskini November 30 2006, 06:56:04 UTC

Jen, if I thought it would shock you more than it would anger you, I'd pick up the phone right now and call you (it's 2am your time...not sure of your sleeping habits). you sound...dare I say it? depressed?

Re: feeling drastic jenfromhischool December 3 2006, 20:49:51 UTC

aw, that is very nice of you. yes, i am having a difficult time these days. umass doesnt give me enough deadlines. the work is boring. and i dont exercise enough. nor do i have any hobbies other than knitting and reading novels. when i do those activities, i feel guilty for whatever reason. all that really really affects me. i'm not sure why i cant just relax into it, and find some things to occupy myself. i would have killed for so much free time while i was working toward my bachelor's... that was a very dramatic entry that didnt misrepresent my feelings at the time. but i'm still functioning enough to count as not depressed, i think.

Re: feeling drastic bakaskini December 3 2006, 21:45:09 UTC

since you're a student there, you probably have free access to their counseling services. It couldn't hurt to just have a nice chat with another intelligent, somewhat wiser woman...I met with such a one this past Thursday. She was great! I actually dug her style. She was real and sarcastic and cursed a lot. It was helpful to have someone to process my thoughts/feelings with.

Part of being depressed is an inability to enjoy what one has typically enjoyed. Maybe you're not doing that, I don't know. Whatever the case, I hope you start functioning at the level you want to be at, soon.

And so, I hope you (and I) find another hobby:) I always think of playing music or doing a fine art or craft...none of which I have any skill in whatsoever. I relate to feeling guilty about doing "non-important" activities. Somehow, I've grown up into a very serious and overly conscientious adult who's taken nearly all the fun out of life. I am too young for that shit.

Re: feeling drastic jenfromhischool December 3 2006, 22:32:06 UTC

mos def'

ambiguityitself December 4 2006, 02:33:06 UTC

when old grouches step down from trones to comfort discheveled ones, such are the best reasons for living.