it has been a long time.... and i know that everyone has switched to xanga but i am still a faithful LJ fan.....it has been a rough year.........school has kicked my ass to the point i almost quit this last semester..........the one year anniversary of the dreaded Day is coming up and i just want to not wake up that day.............it has been hard ( Read more... )

all i reallyh want is one day......it seems sooo hard and sometimes i am on the back bunner but all i really want is one day...it is my fault for not saying anything.......i should understand but i want to be selfilsh....i thought maybe he would be the same since he is going to be away but i dont think so......boys r dumb sometimes.....even when it ( Read more... )

ive been kinda down these past few months..........although i know the reasons why i just am unsure what to do..........i thought i needed a "new beginning" and by this i mean ive shed about 15 pounds and 14 inches of hair..............i've tried to be more personable and meet new people....but all i've found out is that the same old baggage is ( Read more... )

somebody once told me that "i have the power to move mountains and to swim sees......don't let anyone one prevent me from being happy"................well in my case it is something.....guilt is a nasty nasty thing..........something that i cant seem to move past....it consumes me and i dont know what to do....... i hope that in my life time i ( Read more... )

i may not be able to forgive myself...........yet alone forget.....but hopefully i can just move on........but how can i move on when it haunts my every thought.........they say time heals everything......so hopefully that will be true in my case to..........we'll see......

i feel so numb......like im outside of the reality.............just watching from the sidelines.........i didnt think it was possible to hate some one so much but it is.......i am a horrible horrible person and i hate myself like i could never imagine..........i just want to go away and make it all better but i cant......so now im stuck with this ( Read more... )

i am a stupid stupid girl...................

drunken crying............it is true i am sad about nathan but it will be ok.............work was crazy today......i hate dq...............no i am going to read harry potter.......

<"To the world you may be one person ( Read more... )

i heart my boyfriend......