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jennabegins

Bipolar Chronicles

Jan 29, 2011 02:36

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mandiferous January 30 2011, 22:06:39 UTC

Bipolar is not the problem for me, but for different circumstances I can definitely relate right now. Just sending you hugs right now...

jennabegins January 31 2011, 07:40:10 UTC

Thank you. I couldn't have read this at a better moment. Hugs to you too; if you want to tell me what's going on, feel free.

oliphont February 20 2011, 02:09:24 UTC

hey jenna, it's bryn.

i know these words. i know them from own own world of closeted crazy. i just wanted to drop you a line, and even though i know this is a couple weeks old wanted to say if you wanna talk i'm here.

jennabegins February 20 2011, 09:48:53 UTC

Aw, thank you so much Bryn. I'm getting better, slowly but surely. I think the worst part is that my life is so beautiful right now and there's no stinkin' reason to be upset, but my brain just doesn't cooperate. Been dealing with it since middle school, though I've been unmedicated for about 5 years now (I was on Zoloft, Adderall, Lithium, and Risperdal at the same time for a few years there). Like I said, sometimes I want Adderall back, to feel like I can at least freakin' concentrate, you know? I AM a happy person. I hate when my brain tries to fool me into thinking otherwise.

Added you as an LJ friend! I'm trying to transfer to tumblr eventually.

oliphont February 21 2011, 04:23:44 UTC

Yea I've been off meds for a couple years now and it's a strange adjustment. I was actually just talking with a friend of mine today about how I had forgotten how bad my ADD was until this semester. I can't concentrate at all on whatever the hell anyone is saying unless I stare at their mouth and watch the words form at their lips. Doing homework is too hard also and I'm falling behind again. It's hard sometimes when life is going so well and then you have a breakdown and it's like, "where the fuck did that come from?!" One of the reasons West actually broke up with me because he couldn't handle my intense mood swings, even though he had never seen it as bad as it used to be. I don't know, brains are fucked up.

jennabegins February 22 2011, 08:13:37 UTC

Oh man, I don't know sometimes how I got through my last year at UMD. I'm only mildly ADD (usually) but I'm an English major and I was only sleeping every other night (literally) because I just couldn't keep my mind on the over-200-pages of papers I had to write. For me, the Adderall would be more for my emotional well-being. I hate when I'm having an intense conversation or argument and I can't keep straight what's going on, or what was just said, or what point I was just thinking of. I'm normally really good at that. My brain is always like hyperlink.