I haven't wanted anything this much in a long time.

And I'm so scurred.

So. Happy effin Monday ( Read more... )

Happy effinnnnn Monday. I'm not a fan. I say I hate Mondays about 20 million times every Monday. I think it really helps me in my attempts to become a more optimistic person ( Read more... )

Hellooooo weekend. Okay technically that started last night. But who's keeping track anyway ( Read more... )

Monday. Blah. I don't like Mondays much. On Monday there's no more weekend. And Shiloh has about 5 billion hours of classes and rehearsals so I don't see her ( Read more... )

It's Sundayyyy. And it's actually sunny here. Crazy. It feels like it's been raining for the last year ( Read more... )

Whoa. It's update time. I'm supposed to be in class right now but my Tolstoy class was cancelled for today. HOLLAR ( Read more... )

So yeah. Here I am. I might attempt to write a normal entry? Normal in the sense that I'm actually going to talk about stuff rather than write obscure groups of seemingly senseless sentences and end it. And I think a lot of this entry will probably be about my whole deal with Shiloh (which I still am not going to explain, because it's not really ( Read more... )

Things are a little better now. Of the few people reading this, probably very very few know what my situation actually is. It's not the kind of thing I could ever put in a silly journal, just because that makes it seem so much less real and less painful, and it is real and painful. I can't really talk about it at all, anywhere. I don't know ( Read more... )

I don't know that I've ever hurt this badly before.
I don't know that I've ever lost so much before.
And I don't know if we'll be alright.

God somebody make it stop