a recap of drunkeness (aubs style)
let's see, I got home at midnight on thursday (tech friday) and went over to watch some harry potter w/brian. I decided to leave earyl from college b/c my sutiemates had hw to do and I was bored, so I figured i could get home and still see ppl. be4 the nite was over with. Even with the snow storms just outside of elmira and outside of syracuse, I made it home in normal time. went over to brian's adn watched half of the first harry potter be4 he needed sleep. went home and snuggled with a puppy. :) woke up and went to see harry potter 4!!!! omg! luv!! I like the book much more, and I'm sure I'll like the movie more once I get over the fact that they don't follow the storyline perfectly. so I'll either see it later this wk or once I get back to college.
friday nite, I went and hung out w/jarrid,mike, jer, and heather. Heather and I actually conversed and found out that we both like each other. we never really talked be4, in different crowds in hs, but we were enver mean to each other. just the casual hey how ru stuff. b/c our friends were friends. so we've been hanging out a lot since she and jer and jarrid are really good friends. it was fun tho. we went to madri gras, which has a 5 bucks cover card. seriously wtf! not even that cool and drinks are TINY! so we leave b/c we had to go meet jarri'ds friend who was turning 21 at Mick's. pretty dead there, but we played that dis thing on sand. no clue the name of it. proceded upstairs to play pool, at which pt I thought HEY! let's see if I can fit this around mybody. So I get it around one shoulder and my head, and was like ohh well I can deff get in this w/2 shoulders, and proceed to get stuck. thats rite, in the middle of a bar, I was stuck in the pool rack. go me. later we went to poor richards and hung out. heather and I tried to teach mike how to dance. we were not successful. but it sure was funny seeing him try. *L* Afterwards, I ended up yelling at jer, for no reason. I said I was drunk. (not full fledge can't walk drunk, I'm RARELY that way) (blowjobs. sooo tastey). he said no you're not (which mind u, he never believed I was drunk ever when we were together) so this makes me mad, b/c I'm like he never trusts me. So I blow up at him and say fuck u. and walk away, come back, and proceed to tell him off. And was like u know what, fuck u, u never trusted me when we dated why would I ever think u would when were were friends. I deserve so much betterm yadada. basically completely stupid. I didn't make a huge scene or anyhting, but went outside to cool down and get awya from him. the bar closed and wouldn't let me back in, so I'm stuck outside in a small tank top. luckly some stranger offered me his jacket. We talked, jer came outside and tried to get my attention, which I ignored him. I realized in teh car after some yummy mickey d's, that I acted stupid. I shouldn't have overreacted, but I did mean what I said. so we took him home b/c he was sick. appologized again b/c I needed to pee like a mo fo. and left. went home and passed out.
Saturday I went to see if brian was feeling better b/c his back has been hurting him, 1 house was on fire in sacketts and one garbage fire out of control. seriously sacketts. so we hung out and went to the mall for a bit and hung out. I dropped him back off and went home to work on some hw. dropped off a piece offering to jer for the other nite and picked up some dryer sheets. mmm vanilla!
saturday nite, went out w/meek, and everyone I listed be4. meek ended up puking all over the outside of her car be4 the nite even started. I felt so bad for her. but she was like ok, lets go out. hahah, she was determined! so we ended up going to speakeasy to wait for heather and jer. played pool, in which jarrid demanded I learn how to play pool the correct way w/a pool stick (I use the other end, it's easier for me :)) proceeded to poor richards after heather got home and jer met up w/us and we dnaced the nite away. I think I picked up about 6 different guys to dance with. no guys would dance with me, so I was like u look lonely and said come dance. I must say, I like that way a lot better, I have more variety. ended up meeting this guy named thomas, who was 26, didn't look it! but was very nice. he ended up buying me a drink so I danced w/him some more b/c he got me one. so after 3 dances the bar was closing. so I said thanks and left. not sure what our convo was during most of the dance, but just random stuff. he was quite nice. and not a bad dancer either, esp for a guy. I'm pretty sure he was a GI. ended up yelling for the bartender, mike b/c heather wanted to give him a tip, at which point I stood on teh chair and screamed his name as loud as I could (now by stood I mean kneeled) which tom saw and I looked like a drunken fool. Which I wasnt. we headed back home. and jer and I had a talk about us. which ended in basically, I always thought that in the end I'd be with u. no matter what I figured we'd get back together, but I know now we probably won't. and I want him to be happy more then anything. and basically all this stuff I've kept hidden from him for so long. it was nice and sad all at the same time. but basically I wanted him to know that he deserves all teh happiness in the world, and it's not me. and that I know he's changed, and he really has, and I'm so glad he has, b/c he seems happy. and I wish him all the best.
for the short version- lots of drinking, lots of laughs, lots of stupidity, and ltos of teaching guys how to dance. home rocks
basically it has been a great wkend. and I love being home. I love my friends more then anything. and I wish that we could be together always. I luv them to death! I always think I luv being in elmira, and that it's great, it is. but nothings like being at home w/my friends, and never worrying about how to act b/c they luv me no matter what. and I luv the fact that I'm getting back to me. home is my haven. it's great.