i'm soooo tired. not just physically but emotionally. i'll think that i'm okay again, and then something little will happen and i'm a mess again. this is not good, and it's really starting to bother me. i mean it bothered me before, but it's really getting to me now. oh well, it's my problem, so there is no point in whinning about it ( Read more... )

i was going to do a full out update, seeing as how i haven't in a while... but then i remember i've had a bad night, and i don't want to say anything i'll regret ( Read more... )

why is it that you can tell someone everything but how you feel for them? falling in love with your best friend sucks and i don't advise it. but then again... love? so i'm using the term losely, whatever.

i went to the madison basketball game tonight, ehhh pfff.

i also put my winter sheets on my bed, woohoo?

umm yep, that's about it

i went to mentor by myself for the first time yesterday... big fun there. i had to return something to pac sun. then i went to barnes and noble... i love that place. i got a book of slyvia plath's poetry. she always makes for an interesting read. umm what else...oh i drove by the enclave but it wasn't open :( i really wanted chai... i then went to ( Read more... )

it's thanksgiving, and for the first time in 16 years i'm not eating dinner at mimi's with the rest of my family :( mimi decided she didn't want to deal with it this year, and i don't want to have dinner with allen so i'm going with the poseys to their grandfolk's. if i can't be with my family, they are the next best thing... it's not like i enjoy ( Read more... )

how do you know when you've hit the lowest you could possibly fall? because i think i'm there. i'm so depressed and i can't figure it out. it's gotten to the point where it's just a chore to get up in the morning. i'm probably over reacting and feeding myself sympathy, but that doesn't take away the immense hurt. i really need a vacation from my ( Read more... )

it was an interesting weekend... i actually stayed at my dads, but it was nice? i guess... we didn't fight. it's odd that i'm getting along well with him, but i can't be in the presence of my mother or allen for more than 10 minutes without a fight ( Read more... )

i just realized that it's only tuesday, which means three days left of the week. argh. anyways, i stayed home from school yesterday, that doesn't happen very often. but when i got out of bed and nearly fainted i figured i shouldn't be in school. therefore i spent my day sleeping and watching movies. the day was great until my mom got home. i ( Read more... )

hmm lets see... saturday i was at the school from 9 to 3 for play practice. i think the play is going to be pretty decent, however i'm soooo sick of seeing it, hah. umm once that was done i picked danielle up, went to mimi's to get ready and then drove to mayfield... AHHH. considering i have never driven that far from home, it was rainging pretty ( Read more... )

today after school i decided to blow off play practice and go to the library instead. now most people who ditch one thing don't end up in the library, but hey that's me for you. i got a new card, and got a collection of Poe's work, as well as a story by j.d. salinger, that is NOT the catcher in the rye. yes, i'm finally reading a new book. ummm ( Read more... )