i really need a vacation...

plum island can't come soon enough.

but even that is only a week long then its back to reality.

so last week me and sean celebrated our "one year" together ( Read more... )

as i'm at work looking at places to hold wedding receptions, where to buy brides maid dresses, where to order wedding invitations, where i might register for gifts, prices of everything, etc... it finally hit me...

i'm engaged.

wow.

i really want it to be my birthday so i can have my pretty new ring!

so i think me and sean are considering getting an apartment together.

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there are certain things an exboyfriend is not supposed to say directly to you - like his desire to sleep with all your best friends. and he doesn't see any problem with this. says i'm being illogical ( Read more... )

i thought i was happy about me and sean breaking up.

the trying to convince myself didn't work so well. i disgust myself actually.

which means i can finally understand why my friends get tired of me. i just don't understand why i do it.

my family thinks its a good idea to try to set me up with someone new.

maybe i just need to be alone.

sean and me are just going to be friends. he wasn't happy. i wasn't happy. its better off this way. i love the time i spend with him but in a relationship we are both miserable. we still act the same as we do when we had a title - but i guess it just puts both of our minds at better ease this way. as a girlfriend he couldn't stand me and i ( Read more... )

i can't keep doing this. i don't know how much longer i'll be able to just let him keep breaking up and going back out with me when he wants. its not fair ( Read more... )