so here it is 4am... again... though tonight it isn't a 5 hour dt.  i am not really sure what to put my finger on to blame my late night tonight.  i keep getting excited and scared, this back and forth game of tennis with my emotions that has me so totally confused.  it isn't that there are reservations, i just keep trying to make sure that ( Read more... )

open all the doors and let you out into the world....

so i am going home today.  it is funny how two nights magically turn into a week.  there has been a lot of emotions and thoughts that have been dealt with.  i am not saying that i have gotten anywhere with my process, but i have a realistic start.  i have a huge thank you for chris and steh for ( Read more... )

 
right, so here we are with yet another post, in under 24 hours.  shock and gasps are allowed.  i find that posting is actually a great therapy for me right now.  that whole writing your thoughts down and stuff and hoping that helps get them out of your head enough to move on to other thoughts so you are not pondering the same thing over and over ( Read more... )

 
and the eyes have it...

so we (chris, steph, and i) go do dinner and we get back and dash (their new hyper beyond all reason, bouncing baby boy doggie foo foo head) had managed to get prince charming (stuffed frog of cuteness).  then after all is said and done dasher chews the eyes off of said frog and manages to start pulling stuffing out of his ( Read more... )

so i get this phone call from chris around 2:30ish yesterday afternoon to let me know he was on his way for the weekend of cards and stuffs.  we laughed a bit about this and that and i informed him that he had no fucking clue about where i actually live here in the city.  got that all figured out and then it was boom and escape! which is very much ( Read more... )

apparently if you bring a boy a superman cape he will love you forever.  so it stands to reason you are able to buy a boy's love with a cape...  so if you feel you need love just give (insert the name of the random boy/man/male/wanna-be-male here) a cape and they will love you forever ( Read more... )

Me: i just got hit on by a gay man in lousianna ( Read more... )

so it started the other day.... it felt like someone had grabbed a wad of masking tape and wrapped it all into a ball that is sticky on the outside and then rolled it all around in razor blades and glass....  i figured i slept with my mouth open or something and my throat was dry... or i was having an irritation from sinus drainage... because it ( Read more... )

 so i am sitting over here at kort's after one of our monthly get together and forget the rest of the world nights.  i logged on to check up on a few things and my lj says that i haven't made a post in over 10 weeks.  it isn't that i haven't had anything to say, i just am not online much at all anymore.  i don't go over to dad's as much anymore so ( Read more... )

surprise again, though this time i am not at the sibling's place.  i am at dad's because the sibling decided to stay home with his sick little girl.  infact, i may just get the next couple of days off from going over there meaning that i won't have to be stuck over there not knowing what the hell is going on until well after the time that game is ( Read more... )