when everything feels like the movies, i just want you to know who i am

[jenni_malarkey]

i cried for the first time since i got back from ireland last night. It all just suddenly came out. its so hard to just hold everything down and just wear the happy face that makes everyone else happy. its just something we have to do. sadness is selfish. sadness breeds sadness. I know who I am, but i don't know if my friends do. So hideously

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[lazy_zombie]

Hey buddy.
It all gets too much in the end huh? I know how you feel I think. I want to know who you are, I thought I did, but now you've gotme doubting. I like to think I do, but hmmm.
Jenny Foo I want to get to know you.
I hope someone comforted you last night...
I love glue!

[jenni_malarkey]

Its not the end man, its been a very very long time. Too much stuff, it all gets to you huh..
Kill me- I'm watching America's Next Top Model..it's been on for a while now..the remote is right there too. The worst thing is..this is the best thing on..proof that humans do not deserve to live.

[twisted_shock]

Ah brain at 4:00am...
We all want to see others for who they really are in case it provides insight into who we really are...
I know who Alex is, he's me, as far as I'm concerened Alex will be me for the rest fo my life, he'll change and adapt but always be me...
Think of your pickaxe (I know you have one) If the axey bit gets worn out, you'll replace it...if the handle wears out you'll replace that to...and is it still the same pickwhatsit?
Keep these things thrice in your mind...
1. You're Jenny, aint nuthin gonna change that...
2. Somewhere, someone loves you...
3. Life's a frog, analogies are bullshit. stick with you pickaxle.

[jenni_malarkey]

Think of your pickaxe (I know you have one) If the axey bit gets worn out, you'll replace it...if the handle wears out you'll replace that to...and is it still the same pickwhatsit? that is direct terry pratchett there. the one when sam vimes goes to uberwald..god knows what its called. its a great metephor.
I know who I am, but as i spend my whole life confused sometimes the facts get blurred, feelings that aren't there create themselves to fill gaps and others get squashed and hidden to be discovered in dusty corners at the most inappropriate of times..
Life's a pizza. Make sure you get the barbecue sauce..

[jenni_malarkey]

i like smelling garlic