how do u get yourself out of that one lil vicious cycle? anyone know?

so what do u do when someone u truely trust lies to you about something huge!? this is what i did, at first i was mad, i mean really mad and then i was ok. but then the more i thought about it the more mad i became and next thing i know i'm crying and calling them and leaving them a voicemail telling them how i dont want to talk to them for a few ( Read more... )

have u ever secretly wished you were popular? like when u look at pictures of the popular kids from high school do u ever wish that you were some what a part of that group? i know this sounds really dumb but i envy them in a way u know. itz like all the beautiful people will be friends forever adn everyone else is just yuck. itz weird but all the ( Read more... )

my life feels all upside down and backwards and just all over the place. i dont know what im gonna do with things and so on. i am constantly tryin to please everyone and at the same time never pleasing myself. today i started to think about all the guys in my life. Almost every single one in my life has left some permant damage on me. my father ( Read more... )

So i was watching an episode of one of the greatest shows in the world, Sex and the city, and the episode made me think because of this one qoute ( Read more... )

im sick of feeling this way, itz like no matter how hard i try i will always feel disgusting and fat and gross and unwanted. everyday i do things to try and look perfect and beautiful and it never works. im sick of feeling like shit all the time about my looks. i constantly find myself comparing every inch of myself to all the pretty girls in the ( Read more... )

itz finals week at osu and i want to shoot myself. yuck! i have my last one today and my brain is complete mush! i hate it. everyone pray that i did good thid quarter please!

When will my heart stop feeling broken?

Filling up my empty days with red wine ( Read more... )

sometimes the fuck ups u make in life can be blessings. this way u learn ppl's true feelings about things and how they react to certain things. the last few days have been just shit. columbus isnt at all what i thought it would be. i sometimes hate it and never wanna be there. i missed my mom alot last night. i called her crying at 1230am cause of ( Read more... )