fic: ryan to brendon
This is just a little letter that Ryan wrote to Brendon. I guess you could call it a fic. Continue? no? post it anywhere?
Dear Brendon,
Once upon a time where was a little baby boy born to two crazy parents into a family that he felt misplaced in, a family he didn't belong in. As he grew up he was dark, his mood never lightened and family that never knew of this. He kept himself sheltered in a dark room writing about things such as love that he had never felt. He was writing about things he never thought he would experience. He was never able to light himself up. No one wanted this dark thing. That was until he met this bright thing. He had wide eyes and a wonderful smile and for the first time, the dark boy was illuminated. Have i ever told you that story? That's the story of when the moon met the sun, Brendon. I can't thank you enough for illuminating my heart the way you do. No one has ever made me feel this way.
There are late nights and sneaking glances and motions to bedroom. There are a lot of things that we have. There is more than i want. There is more than i can't have.
I read a story once of a boy who spent his life in his room, he laid in bed all day and didn't have a care in the world because he had all that he wanted, and everyday people would walk past his house and look in, and feel sorry for the boy who never left. The only thing is, that boy had something, something that nobody else had. That was you. I could lie in bed with you all day every day for the rest of my life.
I'm not making any sense anymore. I can't put anything into words anymore. Nothing makes sense. Everything is a blur, a blur that is covered with you and everything about you. I used to hate not knowing anything, i hated it so bad i would lock myself in my room with a dozen books and not leave until they were finished, but now. Now i have you, this beautiful beautiful thing full of the unknown and i wouldn't have it any other way.
Everything i think of reminds me of you and everything i do i wish you were here with me. I feel like the boy who just hooked up with the most popular girl in school, only better. You aren't the most popular, you don't think like they did. Your mind is pure and your heart is golden. You see everything how it is and how you see me i'm unsure. You see all of this amazing things in me that i could never see. You see in me what i see in you, and what i see in you is out of this world.
What am i doing? I'm comparing you to a girl that someone wanted in high school. What is wrong with me? I'm acting crazy, but i've never been happier in my entire life. You..you're like a drug to me. You make me do things i would never do if it were anyone else. The only difference is..you'd never let me down in the end like a drug would. I never have a downfall with you and. I love you, Brendon Boyd Urie. -rr
Dear Brendon,
Once upon a time where was a little baby boy born to two crazy parents into a family that he felt misplaced in, a family he didn't belong in. As he grew up he was dark, his mood never lightened and family that never knew of this. He kept himself sheltered in a dark room writing about things such as love that he had never felt. He was writing about things he never thought he would experience. He was never able to light himself up. No one wanted this dark thing. That was until he met this bright thing. He had wide eyes and a wonderful smile and for the first time, the dark boy was illuminated. Have i ever told you that story? That's the story of when the moon met the sun, Brendon. I can't thank you enough for illuminating my heart the way you do. No one has ever made me feel this way.
There are late nights and sneaking glances and motions to bedroom. There are a lot of things that we have. There is more than i want. There is more than i can't have.
I read a story once of a boy who spent his life in his room, he laid in bed all day and didn't have a care in the world because he had all that he wanted, and everyday people would walk past his house and look in, and feel sorry for the boy who never left. The only thing is, that boy had something, something that nobody else had. That was you. I could lie in bed with you all day every day for the rest of my life.
I'm not making any sense anymore. I can't put anything into words anymore. Nothing makes sense. Everything is a blur, a blur that is covered with you and everything about you. I used to hate not knowing anything, i hated it so bad i would lock myself in my room with a dozen books and not leave until they were finished, but now. Now i have you, this beautiful beautiful thing full of the unknown and i wouldn't have it any other way.
Everything i think of reminds me of you and everything i do i wish you were here with me. I feel like the boy who just hooked up with the most popular girl in school, only better. You aren't the most popular, you don't think like they did. Your mind is pure and your heart is golden. You see everything how it is and how you see me i'm unsure. You see all of this amazing things in me that i could never see. You see in me what i see in you, and what i see in you is out of this world.
What am i doing? I'm comparing you to a girl that someone wanted in high school. What is wrong with me? I'm acting crazy, but i've never been happier in my entire life. You..you're like a drug to me. You make me do things i would never do if it were anyone else. The only difference is..you'd never let me down in the end like a drug would. I never have a downfall with you and. I love you, Brendon Boyd Urie. -rr