When the angels gave Rebecca wings...

[jenny_grrl]

I wanted to do more for her. I wanted to do so much more. There was a world beyond her pain that would open up to her, like a brand-new flower, exposing itself by layer upon layer, but she'll never know what awaited her

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shock and pain

[erisreg]

my condolences,.. o.o

Re: shock and pain

[jenny_grrl]

Thank you, sweetheart.

[vilhem]

Jesus darling, I am so shocked,
I never knew about her of course but, ahh this is too horrible.
No words to comfort you now, or her family...if she had any, nada. I am very sorry, Jennifer. Try to...be strong or something, try to respect her decision

[jenny_grrl]

I do, Vil, I do... maybe she's free now... and nothing can hurt her where she is... but God did I want so much more for her. I wanted her to know true love, to be taken care of and to be nursed back to life. Made healthy again, so all the painful memories she ever lived through were just that... memories, distant past.

Very little comes of comfort right now. But sometimes I think when you're mourning a loss, you really shouldn't be comforted. That grief is what we knew of our loved ones... and it's there for a reason.

[suzyd]

It's not really my place to say anything - I didn't know Recca. I guess I just want you to know that someone's listening, and that you make me wish I'd had the opportunity to make her acquaintance.

The thing I don't understand is why this option is not people's *last* option. If everything's wrong, change something. Change everything. It couldn't get worse, but even if it did, you still have that last option. I guess that deep down people know that they are loved, and know that they have options, but it is a lack of vision or resolve that they don't take another option.

I'm very sorry for your loss. For the world's loss. Peace to her, whereever she may reside.

[jenny_grrl]

Thank you for being out there and for listening, sweetheart. I wish you had had that opportunity too. You know, it's funny... just from this little post I was able to convey that she was a "person to know", but Recca never thought as much of herself. No matter who tried to change her opinion. One of Recca's real-life friends said something very pertinent... she said "maybe you weren't able to see how special you were to so many people. Maybe now you'll be able to."

I just hope that's the case.

[jenny_grrl]

-smiling softly- As I said earlier, sweetheart, sometimes I think when you are grieving there shouldn't be any words to give comfort... not because we don't deserve it, but because that grief is there as a reminder to how much we're going to _miss_ those people we loved. In a way it feels like a cleansing (I hate this word). It's the best way for us to make peace.

But the fact that you wished to offer such comfort is just another testiment to what a wonderful person you are. -smiling softly- Thank you.

[jenny_grrl]

I love you too, Chel. Always. When I think of this... this type of pain, it makes me frightened. There are so many sweet and innocent people out there going through pain just like Recca. Who is a stranger to pain? Well, no one. But there are many who are no stranger to all sorts of abuse either. That's what scares me. Abuse destroys... every form of it. Some more than others, but they are all deeply scarring.

I wish I could take all those scars away... from everyone. I wish there were some way in this world to erase that kind of pain so people weren't forced to try to cope with it. I understand that it can also build a person's character, so it's a double-edged sword... but I'd sacrifice a little character for a few less battle injuries.