The funny thing with role models is that people often put them on those infamous pedestols. Role models don't belong there because pedestol people don't really live. You live! It's how you handle what life throws at you that makes you a role model. Occasionally screwing up doesn't negate that either because the true test of character is how you handle the problems you make for yourself. You always do it beautifully.
I love you. Every one has a part of them that they think no one knows about. Remember that your very best friends probably do know and love you anyway!
"Faking it for you...not that you asked me to or anything. And faking it for me, but I haven't been convincing myself very well lately, and that only exacerbates the funky-ness of my funk."
wow. i feel like you have ripped out words in my head and put them out there. and i think that is why i like you so much. because i feel like you may know me sometimes better than i know me. especially about the productive personality wasting away time. i do that all of the time... and it makes me feel horrible. but even worse is when i can't remember where the time went. then i panic.
so, i guess there is all of this to say that there is someone out in the world who views it the exact same way. it's been a while since i've been able to be half-content with my day to day life. i just want my life to mean something... and i keep saying that it's not good enough. so, i find myself unhappy with even the smallest of things.
you are a damn good role model because you help me be me a little more each day. and, in my book, that's a big deal...
I know it sounds like ridiculous advice, but please try not to be too hard on yourself, and don't let yourself feel too depressed for too long.
I just spent a week in the hospital for trying to hurt myself because of my severe depression. I tried to convince myself that I was being a baby and needed to suck things up and stop feeling so sad and upset all the time. I was too hard on myself all of the time and just made myself even more miserable. I would really hate for anyone else to go through what my family and I did. So, find someone to talk to, call your doctor to increase your medicine, do whatever it takes to keep from staying depressed. Take my word for it; you don't want to end up in the Psyc Ward.
I, uh, don't have anything else to add. I just wanted to you to know that I was thinking about you and hoping that your Mobile weekend goes well. And next weekend. I'm guessing it's a Mobile weekend, too?
I'm with Brett. I don't have much else to add because you already know what I think. You'll make it through the tough times. AND I love you. And don't worry too much about being a role model. It's highly overrated.
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I love you. Every one has a part of them that they think no one knows about. Remember that your very best friends probably do know and love you anyway!
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wow. i feel like you have ripped out words in my head and put them out there. and i think that is why i like you so much. because i feel like you may know me sometimes better than i know me. especially about the productive personality wasting away time. i do that all of the time... and it makes me feel horrible. but even worse is when i can't remember where the time went. then i panic.
so, i guess there is all of this to say that there is someone out in the world who views it the exact same way. it's been a while since i've been able to be half-content with my day to day life. i just want my life to mean something... and i keep saying that it's not good enough. so, i find myself unhappy with even the smallest of things.
you are a damn good role model because you help me be me a little more each day. and, in my book, that's a big deal...
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I just spent a week in the hospital for trying to hurt myself because of my severe depression. I tried to convince myself that I was being a baby and needed to suck things up and stop feeling so sad and upset all the time. I was too hard on myself all of the time and just made myself even more miserable. I would really hate for anyone else to go through what my family and I did. So, find someone to talk to, call your doctor to increase your medicine, do whatever it takes to keep from staying depressed. Take my word for it; you don't want to end up in the Psyc Ward.
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