After Spencer's surgery I set my alarm to go off during the night so I could get up to give him his pain medicine. When he woke up in the morning he asked me if I gave him his pain medicine and I said "yes, don't you remember?" He said "no, but I thought so since I can still hear the wind blowing in my head." He kept telling me that the pain ( Read more... )

On Monday morning I had to leave around 6:30 to take Spencer to the hospital. We got there around 5 minutes to 7:00. When we got there the nurse got us set up and went over the questions until around 7:30. Then the doctor came by and went over what the procedure would be like and how long they would have Spencer in Surgery for. He said that it ( Read more... )

In December on Christmas day I got an email that my friend's daughter had died on the 20th. She was having a minor surgery and they told her mom when they got home to give her some pain medicine. The hospital had given her too much pain medicine and when her mom gave her some she had too much in her system and she died. I wanted to go to the ( Read more... )

A week ago today we blessed Brigham. Most of my family was able to make it up for the blessing. It really meant a lot to me that they came. My sister Leslie came up on Friday and visited. On Saturday we went to the shoe store and Gossner Cheese Factory. Mostly we just hung out and did the things that I have to do in a day, but it was so nice ( Read more... )

After having Brigham I felt the most depressed that I have ever felt after having a baby. It didn't keep me from being able to complete the things that needed to get done. I just cried while I was doing them. For me, I knew that this feeling was temporary. I felt so anxious to get out and run (I consider running my anti-depressant). I knew ( Read more... )

On the 17th of March we had Spring Break. I was hoping to do some fun things with the kids over the break. Tyler and I took them to lunch at some Chinese buffet swimming to a place called 1000 warm springs. It was pretty fun until Ethan pooped in his swim diaper, he is potty trained so I wasn't worried, until I saw a chunk of poo float by me in ( Read more... )

On March 2nd Tyler and I left for our cruise. It was hard for me to leave because Brigham had RSV and was really sick when we left. I had spent the night in the Emergency room with him the morning before we left. I worried a lot that he would be so sick that he would die while I was gone. I also felt super guilty that I didn't breast feed ( Read more... )

Your Toes Should Be Dark Red


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Last Friday I picked the kids up from school because we had an activity at the church that I was in charge of. When we got home from the activity Spencer complained that his penis was hurting. I was making dinner and told him I would take a look at it later. While I was cleaning up dinner Spencer came up to me and complained again. I took him ( Read more... )

Hailey's Birthday is in a couple of weeks. The other day I asked her what she wants for her Birthday. She said that she wants a real live baby like mine...lol. I told her she could have one of those when she grows up. Then she decided that she wants a real live unicorn. I have no idea what to get her ( Read more... )