it's been about a week since ivy died and i'm not doing any better. i'm just so lonely and the guilt is not getting any better ( Read more... )

My puppy died on Wednesday. She was going to get fixed, and she died under the anesthesia. I blame myself. The whole day before, I just felt like something wasn't right, like this wasn't what I should be doing. I kept crying for no reason on Tuesday and I was very irritable...but, I mean, this is so routine, and I trusted my vet so much. About ( Read more... )

i don't think i've been on the computer in a week. i'm not really going to post because, again, i am depressed (as always these days). i just wanted to say hi so i don't start getting dropped from my friend's lists ( Read more... )

finally ( Read more... )

I'm going to see Saw. I hope it's better than The Grudge. I'm just in the mood for death, I've had an aggravating day ( Read more... )

I DID!!!

Now seriously, I'm going downstairs and turning on CNN to listen to all the crap about voter fraud and whatnot while I house clean.

my supervisor is leaving the internet team to supervise another department so his job was posted. i applied for it with a quickness, i know i could do the job, i know how the department runs...my supervisor was always giving me little projects to do and i already track our incoming email volumes...that is the nice thing about being in a start up ( Read more... )

i think this is pretty big news...he's not gone yet (he's cutting more than half his hours starting in january and he will work part time there until february), but he gave his notice. i know it's crazy because we will be losing a little less than half of our household income, but i'm so happy ( Read more... )

This would be so much easier if I was allowed to use the Internet at work. They seriously monitor every move you make on that stupid computer ( Read more... )

i feel so bad. the vet gave her nose drops and cough syrup and pills. the pills make her really sedated but she doesn't want to sleep. all she does is whine. i tried to ignore her but she cries, so then i decided to hold her and she cries. then i put her down and she peed on the carpet, so now jake is gonna know i let her in the living room. i ( Read more... )