low self esteem - apparently....

[jepsonia]

i didn't post that some time ago - somewhere between the 12th and 20th of august - i was admitted to the New School of Psychotherapy and Counselling for the Doctorate of Psychology.

dinners on
more later

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[nebris]

Or Space Cadet. lol

~M~

..you did say something on Stalkbook I believe..

[jepsonia]

i mentioned the BPS -- which is prerequsite to applying. ugh...the paperwork and red tape. i will be truly grateful when my studies are complete - which is soon....very soon. im very close - and not feeling excited at all - despite being thrilled that i have yet another chance. this is it. after this bit - im done! oxford didn't line up as i had hoped - it set me back and i fell sort of 'on the back foot' if you will.....but know that i can redeem myself - metaphorically anyway. why am i left to feel like ive been bad or that ive failed - when i haven't! im gathering everything that i need so i'm satisfied that i'm properly prepared and ready -- to work from an educated AND professional point. it just matters!and so it matters that i finish!! im frustrated with my old thinking patterns of not being enough! seeing my family -- was a fucking nightmare - they want to make me a failure - telling me i failed because i left oxford! thats not what happened! i was not at all happy with theload of shit they were handing out