Longtime no LJ

[jeremyc]

I've been feeling so unmotivated, uninspired, unexpressive and strange lately. This feeling is so numbing sometimes and all I can do is hope it passes. I guess this is where and what comfort can do to you. I've been thinking a lot lately about what the hell I am doing right now with my life in the short and long term. Teaching has been the

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[edenbreathing]

A friend of mine teaches in Korea for quite the same experience. She makes about 60k CAD a year, they pay for her rent on a cottage, and they give her monthly stipends as well. Not bad actually, she manages to fly back home to Edmonton quite often and has paid off all her school debts in one half year. She adores it there, and wouldn't come back home now if her life depended on it. You strike me as the type of person that would do really well in a position like that, so I (knowing you for the short and rather impersonal way that I do) can see you thriving in a foreign country as a teacher.
A note on the other half of your entry.....I don't think that you are supposed to "stop" loving her at any point in your life. To do so would be an incredible injustice to the feelings that you once had. It doesn't get any easier than that, but the complications drive us mad. I understand though. As odd as that is to write.

sigh. exes.

[nikkidrew]

never as easy as we'd like it to be. i've got my five-year ex on my home turf this summer and just when i think i've got the emotions under control, i prove myself wrong.

snooping around nicks LJ, came across yours. lets hear it for disgust with complacency. hang in there.

nic