Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk

[jeroenwings_grl]

Last night I came to this conclusion that I just don't know how to be a good wife. I always end up doing something utterly wrong... I hurt him, I break him down. And when it's over, I feel like dying because I know that I've killed a part of him. They need to create a manual on what a wife should be

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[mercuryrising13]

Mal, don't knock yourself. You're a beautiful girl and you've always been a sweetheart. You don't trust like you should because you've been in shitty relationships in the past (trust me, i saw them from an outside point of view). And even though I don't know "J" it seems as if he would do anything for you. You just have to believe. You're a smart girl and I know you will realize this one day, if not soon. And as for "nobody reads this".. I DO! haha

Love and Miss ya,
Lindsey Brewer

[jeroenwings_grl]

**hugs**

Thank you so much... to have someone say what you said means a lot to me right now. I didn't realize the fact that I was in shitty relationships was that apparant, but I'm glad that you can at least understand why I have such a lack of trust anymore. It has been hard to believe... it's awkward to allow myself to understand that someone loves me so much that no matter what I do, that love will still be there, unfaltering. I know... and I mean, I KNOW... that he loves me. And I love him just as much in return. I've just gotta get my heart to give him that "last piece" of trust, you know? I know that it will come in time... however, I just wish that the time was now.

Love and miss you too, Miss Lindsey :(

~*Mal*~