I've been searching, wondering, thinking, lost and looking all my life, I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated, wrestled wrong and right, I've been reading, writing, praying, fighting, and I guess I would be still, that was until I knew God's Will.

So I disappeared off the face of the earth wednesday night and have now returned. Thanks to all who left marvelous messages such as....are you dead? on my phone. It is good to know that if I really did die, someone would eventually notice because...well....the smell probably. I think I am in dire need of a nap but I felt like typing and actually ( Read more... )

So....things are interesting as of late. I feel more then a little lost in this world. I don't really know where to turn at this stage in the game. I just need...something....advice..help maybe....I don't really know anymore. I am flipping out....about life...I just need to remember to breath. Breathing is important. And besides who knows what ( Read more... )

I am glad that God has such an amazing sense of humor....and every once in awhile...I think he lets me in on it...and oh man....its funny ( Read more... )

So, I don't know how to start this, but whenever Rolf asks how to start something I tell him sarcastically to start at the beggining and go to the end, so thats what I am going to do. I have been having rough times lately...with everything. I am broke...super stressed about my grades...a stress I cannot even convey to most of you....and to top it ( Read more... )

SO.....I'm calling the time of death, 12:15am on December 20th.

I used to think there was always a black and white, that things were either right, or they weren't. I thought it was clear cut where the boundries are and where they should be.

And now, suddenly, there is an awful lot of grey in my world.

Sometimes I think it is just really funny how tricky life can be, and how you really don't see some things coming. I mean you have this plan, that in your head is how things should be, and its just perfect, but there is a whole differnt plan that you don't get to control at all, and thats how life actually works...this so called grander plan. Its ( Read more... )

I sometimes feel as though I am taking crazy pills..seriously. I feel like some things should just be so obvious...but for some reason or another...aren't and people just can't seem to get there faster...they get there about 5 minutes after its just too damn late. No one....except Jen A and John are really going to understand what I am talking ( Read more... )

You see George, you really had a wonderful life.