xxx so tired of these endless nights, been waiting all my life for the sun to rise xxx

There will be new entries in here, but they will all be writing.

I'm practicing to put a portfolio together for a workshop I'm applying for.

xxx These wounds are raw, no sign of healing. Carved in the shape of my inner demons. xxx

It's fall. Leaves falling, trees baring themselves to the wind, bright colours, and yet it's still warm enough to walk around in jeans and a tank top at 7 pm. This is that weather that novelists use in romance novels. The weather that warms your soul and makes your imagination spin and dance like the leaves running with the breeze ( Read more... )

These are my choices:

I can either give in... let myself drown in it and show the world the cracks in my defenses.. the weak points threatening to crumble under this pressure

or

I can do a better job than I'm currently doing at proving I'm fine.

These are always my choices...

but this can be the only choice: You will never see me break.

I always seem to be reaching for things that are just out of my reach.. I never thought I'd be doing it literally.

Yeah, I thought I was a strong person for the most part and that I do a good job holding myself together... turns out 500 km is just enough to tear me apart.

I Bruise Easily
Natasha Bedingfield

My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow ...

This is my apology to the world
I tried so hard to be "that" girl
I don't even know where I fell.

I'm sorry...

maybe its just one more crack in the line ( Read more... )

you open your eyes ( Read more... )

your loving starts to hurt when i can't feel you hold this heart.

xxx
hold the door
sink the ship
good intentions cave these walls
off the tracks
and running out of gas
tnt to this memory

im uctting you out
and breaking you down
swallowing the pill
and killing the sound
xxx

I hate the way you say i love you, i'm always scared it isn't true.