[I smile so you don't know my heart is breaking....]

[jesilynne]

I hate walking around campus, smiling at all these strangers because a part of me understands that a smile could save a life... Hell, it's saved my own life on a couple of occasions. Lately though, I've gotten back into my old habit of looking at the ground, absorbed in music when I walk. Before break, I walked with my head held high, almost

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[duoinchains]

:(

hun... have you tried talking to his mother... let her know how you feel and just what this enforced seperation is doing/could do to you?? Maybe the direct approach could work.

Are you still able to keep in touch with him??

*huggles*

Stay safe hun, and you know where I am if you want to talk,

[jesilynne]

I've spoken with his mother.. Not about how this is affecting me, though. Basically, I called over there Christmas Day to wish him a Merry Christmas, and she straight-out told me that I can't talk to her son, that she doesn't want me sending any mail or emails or IMs or what-have-you to him. When I asked her why that was, she told me because he's not mature enough for a relationship. And that he had been slacking off in house and school work since our relationship had started. Uhm.. isn't that sort of a phase that 16 year old boys go through? o.o My brother did the same thing... >.>

*huggles back* and as far as the whole still talking with him, well.. we have TUF (which is a forum he created that he got me to join a while back.. ^_^ you know how I am with forums), dA (deviantART in case you didn't know), he's still on my myspace.. and occasionally (though not often enough) he sneaks on Yahoo! and we can talk through there.. very briefly though, he doesn't want to run the risk of the nazi finding out. =(

Thanks for your support

[jesilynne]

Though*

Sometimes, when I get typing too fast, I forget to stop lol