kel,
me.....with short hair, its like a year old...i know..ugly..lets alll laugh. i look like a man in this pic.....ewwwwwwwww

im in cali...and it is beautiful...I havent been this happy in such a long time...And its real happiness..none of this giggly bullshit...wow. I feel like im on top...look out world, here I come......

WIll you drink champange in a cemetary with me?

I cant sleep...ever... i woke up at 5:33 this morning.... But i feel better...and thats a nice change.

It feels really good to be home. I never realized how good it is to be able to go out side, Theres a lot i take for granted....i still miss him, but i'm moving on...the last 5 days has made me a bit bitter though....I protected someone that was supposed to protect me, and i took his place and ended up in hell. I'll never tell him about it...but ( Read more... )

Today is his birthday.

I almost hit the point of being numb....but no... that would be too nice. Numb after 3 days my ass.............goddddddddddammmmmmmnnnnniiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttttttttttttt...fuck everything. i hate life ( Read more... )

I cant breathe.

They say it takes three days to get over the worst of an addiction. it is now day number three. I've been up for an hour and have already broken down and cryed 3 times. It better get better after today, not that i think it will, i just feel like i'm drowning.

My heart weighs about 200 hundred pounds. Goddamn, I hate betrayl. I dont understand, I cant even fathum how you could possibly hurt someone so much that you supposedly loved....and loved you back...and trusted. PLEASe....anyone, explain the cruelty of the world to me... because it is beyond me. I miss him so much...I can honestly say that that was ( Read more... )