its kinda funny how i'm younger than you and i told you what's happened to me. but i'd like to tell you one more thing: one day, you're gonna tell him and he's not gonna feel the same way. maybe he is, its just that he doesnt' know it, like you didn't know it. we're all blind at times and we never notice/realize it until its right under our nose. i don't know, maybe i'm still blind. i thought charles was the one because he was so there but then i realized he wasn't there. he wasn't that one who'd cheer me up when i wanted him to. he wasn't there when i told him how i felt. he just wasn't there.
i think that you should just tell "him" and see what he says. just let it all out to him, "...you probably might not feel the same way, but its okay." was what i had said. its relieving, but the end of the plot is still missing.
i'd like to come over one day and watch a movie and go to starbucks and talk about life. how bout it? its a date? :] hahaha i love you jess.
btw.. while i was reading about the tarren part.. "red and blue jeans" started playing..
"Tuesday, May 03, 2005 wow i hate california. the weather, the gangs, its overpopulated. boo. during summer im going with my dad to washington cause i plan on going to college there, and so we're going to check some campuses out. yeah, its kind of early huh. but who cares. i always love coming back to washington, at least this time ill kind of have a different purpose for going back. and then we might go back to boston or chicago in the fall, depending if im already slacking or not by the time the fuckin school blues set in. wow, all of this is so far away. i guess im just making myself look forward to the bigger, better things to keep me sane until i get my driver's license. and a job. and a girl. and until the sun stops setting at 7:45. (i liked it when it used to set at 4:30) but most importantly, a girl. and i bet that last statement totally threw you off. its ok."
Hey, sorry I don't know you but I know exactly what you're talking about. There was this guy, and I always, always, for three years, thought he'd be the one, but he wasn't. It turns out my heart got to be broken for a little while. I got to feel pain and anguish, but after all that I got to find something better. I found a boy who thinks I'm wonderful, who thinks I'm better than to have to spend three years wishing.
You deserve better Jess. I hope one day you'll see that you deserve better. I hope you'll let yourself deserve better. Don't waste your time with these guys that aren’t good for you. Don't fall for someone who's not worth the pain. You may think that there's nothing else and you'll never find that one real love, but I promise that if you wait and love yourself, others will love you for it.
i know you've had a bad experience with telling the person you like that you like them and they dont talk to you ever again, but that doesn't mean everyone is going to be like that. it could be different in every situation. i'm so scared to even think about how "he" is going to react. i'm not even sure if i want to tell him. i'm thinking, 'maybe it's best that he doesn't even know.' but then i'm also thinking, 'what if i DONT tell him but he's felt this way about me all along. then i should tell him.' it's very confusing but i'm going to take one step at a time and very small steps. i'll leave what happens up to God.
I WANNA COME OVERRRRRRRRRR JESSICA!!!! pick me pick meeee *jumping up and down** XDDDD PICKKk Meeee i wanna watch a movie. hhaha. let's get phantom of the opera cos ashley says its so good and i wanna see it. harharhahra if not thats coool....... man our movie daaaaaays!!
I wanna come tooo! >.o It sux though; there's just no time! You know I'd come if Meryl and Alexia's birthday parties wern't the same day =( You should call me the afternoon before when you want me to come over. I'll call too. Our phone convos rock ;)
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what's happened to me. but i'd like to tell you one
more thing: one day, you're gonna tell him and he's
not gonna feel the same way. maybe he is, its just that
he doesnt' know it, like you didn't know it. we're all
blind at times and we never notice/realize it until its
right under our nose. i don't know, maybe i'm still
blind. i thought charles was the one because he was so there
but then i realized he wasn't there. he wasn't that one who'd
cheer me up when i wanted him to. he wasn't there when i told
him how i felt. he just wasn't there.
i think that you should just tell "him" and see what
he says. just let it all out to him, "...you probably might
not feel the same way, but its okay." was what i had
said. its relieving, but the end of the plot is still
missing.
i'd like to come over one day and watch a movie
and go to starbucks and talk about life. how bout it?
its a date? :] hahaha i love you jess.
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"red and blue jeans" started playing..
"Tuesday, May 03, 2005
wow i hate california. the weather, the gangs, its overpopulated.
boo. during summer im going with my dad to washington cause i plan
on going to college there, and so we're going to check some
campuses out. yeah, its kind of early huh. but who cares. i always
love coming back to washington, at least this time ill
kind of have a different purpose for going back. and then we
might go back to boston or chicago in the fall, depending
if im already slacking or not by the time the fuckin school
blues set in. wow, all of this is so far away. i guess im just
making myself look forward to the bigger, better things to keep
me sane until i get my driver's license. and a job. and a girl.
and until the sun stops setting at 7:45. (i liked it when it
used to set at 4:30) but most importantly, a girl. and
i bet that last statement totally threw you off. its ok."
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You deserve better Jess. I hope one day you'll see that you deserve better. I hope you'll let yourself deserve better. Don't waste your time with these guys that aren’t good for you. Don't fall for someone who's not worth the pain. You may think that there's nothing else and you'll never find that one real love, but I promise that if you wait and love yourself, others will love you for it.
I love you. <3
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