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Nov 20, 2005 15:29

have you ever hated someone so much because he turned into a jerk but can't help but still want him? it's like you want to stay away from him but at the same time you just want to be with him. and it doesn't help when he stares at you all the time when he thinks you're not looking. Why is this feeling here!? why does it have to turn out this way ( Read more... )

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Oh love... loris_ditzy November 23 2005, 18:06:06 UTC

Charlie, Charlie, I think that first you have to accept that you do love this person and only hate that they act like a jerk. You shouldn't never say that you hate someone, you might regret it later. And you shouldn't have any regret if you're a child of God, like you are. And boys... they'll always be that way they want you so bad but they know that you deserve a whole lot better, and love you do deserve better (whoever this guy is). Learn to love yourself when you're alone and that's when you'll be reward with someone to love, someone that's worth it. Waiting... that's your new task, I'll pray for you, because that's the hardest, waiting which goes in hand with patience. I'll pray for you for both, and I love you!!!

Re: Oh love... jess_suckka November 27 2005, 04:41:13 UTC

Thanks Bobby that was very deep and i agree with you about everything EXCEPT this one part...he does NOT love me. well, i dont know if that's really true but i do NOT love him. well maybe i do. I DONT KNOW! how can i know if i love someone if i've never really loved a guy before? and besides.....he's a jerk....but i have to admit...he IS hott. and that's what sucks. *sigh* well i know ONE thing. he doesn't ACT like he cares. and for some weird reason it HURTS. i dont know why this whole thing bothers me really if i "supposedly" dont care about him. i dont know what to do, Bobby. this whole thing is just giving me one big LONG headache and he doesn't even realize HE'S the cause of it ( ... )

Re: Oh love... loris_ditzy November 28 2005, 01:10:09 UTC

By what you wrote I just figured that you loved him. But I see what you mean, I think that you fell in love with the idea of having someone. Which is what everyone wants. I'm sorry that you feel this way. But yeah I doubt that you are in love with him, infatuated, yes. I wish that I could tell you how to know when you're in love but I can't when I find out I'll tell you. Unless by that time you have already told me. I'm happy that you've decided to be okay with your current situation. You've taught me something... THANKS!!!

[<3] you always an dGod Bless!!!

Re: Oh love... loris_ditzy November 30 2005, 04:18:30 UTC

Your welcome, Bobby and thank you too. your wisdom has showed me many things in just this small conversation. I've been thinking about what you've been saying (and what other people have been saying) and I think I should just do what you said and WAIT. I've realized that God hasn't given me what I wanted because i was impatient. i even KNEW i was impatient. now i'm learning to have some patience, and am just letting God lead my life. He'll give me whatever I need/want when i'm ready, and when i finally understand what he's been trying to say to me this entire time.

I truly am grateful for all the friends that I have. You all inspire me to keep on living, and to just take one step at a time. I love you all so much it's making me tear up right now because I realize God has blessed me with such beautiful and supportive friends. I want to thank you for all that you've done, for all the advice you've given me, and for always listening to me when i needed someone to talk to. I love you Charlie. Please don't ever change.