yesterday was one of those days that at some times seems never-ending ... but at the end of it all one of those days that can never last long enough ( Read more... )

at a moment in my life where i am so overwhelmed that i often forget the details, i'm so happy. i can't figure out which way is up nine times out of ten - but i'm constantly aware of how many bullets i've dodged and how very blessed i am ( Read more... )

i stopped missing you today. and i stopped missing who i was with you.

because it turns out that who i was with you is who i am. so there is nothing to miss.

how does one find a middle ground between having expecations and expecting nothing ( Read more... )

sometimes i marvel at the things of which i can convince myself. for example, that i don't need to hear that i'm loved or missed. or that maybe the truth doesn't matter so much after all. or that i don't need anyone ( Read more... )

"It's as though your conception of the world has been inexorably changed, and you see your love life and career with new eyes. Even so, you feel compelled to pick up the pieces of the past and save them. The day ahead should help you let go of the old world ( Read more... )

he said to me late at night, " jess, choose ( Read more... )

today i realized something i've been fighting to grasp for the past six months.

i realized that i'm better off.

i deserve a better man.

i deserve someone who will love me as much as my dad loves my mom.

and i was right to not want to sacrifice that, especially since i loved him like that.

i simply deserve better.

finally.

I stumbled upon a memorial website for Benn. Chris had a made a post back in August around the two year anniversary of his death... it took him two years to say something, two years to allow himself to cry, and two years to come to the realization that he was hiding behind anger ( Read more... )

i'd be willing to say that i believe all of this... i believe ( Read more... )