mmmf! i actually smiled last night ^_^...thanks to andy :)...he sent me music that i like ^_^ and i enjoyed them and he made me laugh and smile and we talked dirty which i havent done in a while ^_^...woop woop! to me talking absolute filth ^_^...anyway im soo bored...so me and evans are sat next to each other sending each other emails :) a bit sad ( Read more... )

I just wanted to say goodbye to all my friends, all the people who have been there for me throughout the years :) Martin Read - you've been a rock and totally inspiration to keep going and holding on, erm Emma - you were my first best friend in school...thank you for not being mean to me :'(, Ruth - you and Emma took really good care of me in ( Read more... )

meh feeling completely drained today :( thats not good...i felt ok when i went home last night, i went on msn and was talking to some friends. then there was dave...aint never seen someone so bitter in my life...he let love fuck him up badly and now he knows nothing but bitterness and hate (towards women btw) i dont like it...noone should ever feel ( Read more... )

i did cheer up a bit today lol...but ive just been sat here thinking about everything that has happened in the past few weeks...hasnt been very nice has it? no not at all. ah fuck it i cant be arsed anymore tbh... whatever happens just happens. just wished everything wasnt so complicated...and if i had the chance i would change a lot of stuff...heh ( Read more... )

today...aint such a good day for me...you'll hear ne laugh but heh it aint even half the shit ya know...me im very good at frontin' (Frontin' - to pretend that everything is ok, or in some cases, you want someone but you pretend not to) think ive fronted most of my time ive been here...things havent been great for me but i still smile and laugh... ( Read more... )

its been a while since you cared properly...all the words you say should mean something and they do sometimes but i believe that you say them to make me happy...its only going to break my heart more in the end just be honest...i look up and i see clouds drifting past and i think whats up there?? life could have been much simpler if i had you in it ( Read more... )

i cant be bothered much lately...like i was talking to tim last night and he was asking me something and i just could not be bothered :(...think ive lost the will to care about much anymore :(...i want to care i just dont feel like i can...now lately all i do i get upset and cry, be angry at shit, and smile and laugh all the time...i find myself ( Read more... )

Hey hey! Who knew my writing could have such an effect on people...I've always been a good writer and i love writing but i never thought it would mean anything to anyone as noone usually cares. not that i care anyway...i write what i feel when i feel ( Read more... )

ya know from now on im gunna let nothing bother me...and im gunna have to start looking out for me and me only...because everytime i put people before me they tend to screw me over...fuck that...i think i need taking care of now...no more taking care of everyone else. heh i hate the way i am. im too good to people....and ya know what i aint even ( Read more... )

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