its been a long time since i actually thought to write in this thing ( Read more... )

its been awhile since i updated. And just so everyone knows its 6 am. The sun is going to rise soon. And well i'm awake because one i can't sleep and two i have this horrible roomie who talks on the phone....plays on her computer...and hermits herself in our room ( Read more... )

READ!!!!!!!

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I'm making my life into a story.

to pass time.

hi.
I'm head over heels for you.
and I wish you could see it.
and i'm probably sure that you already
know.
cuz supposedly i'm easy to read like that.
but I know its soon.
and i know that this could ruin everything.
but you need to know.
-me

I wish it were this easy.

my day has been weird ( Read more... )

my mom has her surgery today.

I'm really nervous.
I want her to be ok.

Its not anything totally crazy, shes just getting her hip replaced.
but she kinda scared me with all of her "heres my finances" crap.
I want my dad to call.
and tell me shes ok.

I guess if she isn't...its bye bye ball state. I'd be packed up and outta here within 2 hours.

so this afternoon i watched my senior choir concert. I balled. And I can't wait to go to the concert this winter. I just can't.

also...

I'm ready to come home this weekend. Just to lounge around and hang out in my room, and at my house. With my dog, my mom, dad, and brother. I'm stoked.

why is it...that the one thing that i wanted has finally happened.

but i'm not at all happy about it.

I'm actually miserable.

I have got to be the most confusing person in the world.

my roomie bought flinstone vitamins...I hope she knows that those wont do much for her...considering they are made for kid bodies ( Read more... )

i hate life.

thats about all i can say at this point.

i am pretty much miserable.

I was suppose to be trying to be happier, and its just not working.

way to go purple rag.