I love you...?fizzy4tunaJuly 14 2004, 19:12:18 UTC
Ok so you can not fight with the facts: You hate Jake, Jake hates you. Jake is only in town till tommorrow (you however we have invited to multiple things such as movie goings and others, and one time should not faze) so plans were made not including you cause you have been know to actually run from the kid. NEXT: LIZ WAS FIGHTING FOR YOU TO COME!!! Don't dis if you haven't heard the whole story. And meditiate on your anger. it really helps.
Hope you feel better and look for a drummer bitch.
I know you were angrie and hurt, but I myself am hurt by this: "But she decided she wanted to keep my friends, even though she didnt want to keep me." Don't even begin to pretend that I "don't want to keep you." That's complete bullshit and you know it. I love you so much and try so fucking hard to make you happy because, while you "try to get your social life on track," I AM all you have. And damnit, Alastair, I care about you!! I don't know why you hate that and pretend it's not true but it IS! "They like her better, as it turns out." If by that you mean, "I hate Jake so it was better for me not to go to this one thing," then you're correct. They don't like me better; I just don't have a huge grudge against Jake, so it was okay for me to come. They don't hate you. I don't hate you. I know you hate me, or you want to hate me. Actuallie, I have no idea what you want because you never talk to me anymore. You always mumble in an extremelie emo manner. The world isn't ending, Alastair. People still love you. I still love
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Ok. When I said the "dont want me" thing, I meant in the way you did before. I dont hate you and you know it. I am sorry if it comes as a suprise, but just because you are ok with the break-up, doesnt mean I am. Why dont you get that I am not happy about us yet. Why is that hard to understand. I am still hurting! How can I be a good friend of yours when you still cause me pain! I am not emo and I know the world is not ending. I thought journals were for expressing emotions so thats what I did. I am not making hundreds of thousands of dollars off a song I wrote with an ecoustic guitar so I'm not emo. Sorry. I know it frustrates you I dont feel like you do yet, but I was the one with no control over the situation. I still dont have complete closure like you do. I'm sorry if you cant deal with that.
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You hate Jake, Jake hates you.
Jake is only in town till tommorrow (you however we have invited to multiple things such as movie goings and others, and one time should not faze) so plans were made not including you cause you have been know to actually run from the kid.
NEXT: LIZ WAS FIGHTING FOR YOU TO COME!!! Don't dis if you haven't heard the whole story.
And meditiate on your anger. it really helps.
Hope you feel better and look for a drummer bitch.
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