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[jessiqua]

I haven't written about her recently as I've fallen out of touch with her since I had to drop out of the marathon training, but I've been keeping up with her through her blog updates, and have exchanged a few emails with her husband, S. Tonight's update isn't so great . . . she was scheduled for a second stem cell transplant, but her cancer is back

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[unholypassion]

I had a dream about Sybil sometime durring the summer. She had her long golden hair in mine as well (she always hated that I considered her a blonde). I also had several pink lucite clocks with me, and kept resetting them back so I could have more time with her. Because I knew if they ran out of time, she would be gone.

[ellison]

I'm sorry, Jess. That is so hard to know someone else you care about is doing so poorly. I think that makes total sense about what it means to be realistic vs. pessimistic. And while I think being pessimistic is generally not good for people, I don't think that's how you're being at all, either. I think you're being realistic and the sad truth is that sometimes the reality of a situation sucks and is really painful. But you're right, denial is not the way to go. My professor said that trying to live in denial usually hurts people later, because suddenly the reality becomes such a shock that it really makes life incredibly hard to deal with. After all, reality can't be staved off forever.

Your dream sounds pretty cool. It seems like it would be nice to recapture that close friendship feeling, even if only for a little while, while you sleep. I can see how that would be heart wrenching, though, too.

Take care, Jess. ((hugs))

[kyrielle]

*offers hugs, if they're wanted*