He made a damn list. One of those lists that girls usually make with everything they can dream of for the perfect lover ( Read more... )

I'm tired of loosing and screwing up even though I know I have no control over it. I'm tired of sleeping alone, even though I know I take up the whole bed sleeping sideways. I'm tired of feeling too much even though I know it makes me who I am. I am tired of wanting things I can't have even though I know there is better out there for me ( Read more... )

 It is always just a little satisfying when you find out the guy you thought you were going to be with forever, kinda turned out to be... less then what you really wanted.

He is still amazing I'm sure... just a with lying and being a slacker on the side. He denied that him and that girl were anything more then friends. But you don't give up someone ( Read more... )

There's something in your eyes
Is everything alright
You look up to the sky
You long for something more, darling
Give me your right hand
I think I understand
Follow me and you will never have to wish again

I know that after tonight
You don't have to look up at the stars,
And I know if the love is alright
You don't have to look up at the stars,
Tell me how you ( Read more... )

The sun was setting, I was driving, and the soundtrack to my life was surrounding me as we headed back home from our much needed vacation. Vacations. We all take them. We all need them. Some more then others. I fit into that 'some' category.

Yes, my body was searing with pain from being grilled like bacon by the sun two days earlier, but that wasn ( Read more... )

It’s like I am standing on a bridge, waiting to jump.

Oh, but that is exactly what I am doing.

Maybe I want to jump… but not really. I’m not the girl who jumps. I am the girl who hides from anything to do with actually feeling something. It’s too hard, it’s too vulnerable, and it’s too damn risky. God, it’s like I am in this moment and there is ( Read more... )

W ell, I did it.

OH SHIT.

This whole thing has been entertaining from the start. I have rules… rules for a reason. The first day I saw him, I knew I was in trouble… but he was a paramedic student … and I have rules. Then I found out he was a firefighter. Double bad. "BUT I HAVE RULES" I told myself. Until he decided not to be a cocky, jack ass- man ( Read more... )

 
These are just thoughts that I wanted to get out into the universe, but Myspace is too public…

The GOOD news.

He makes me feel warm and fuzzy, cliché I know. But all the stupid sayings that have to do with love and life are true with him… which is what I adore about him. He makes me laugh everyday, and not just a giggle… he makes my stomach hurt. ( Read more... )

Confirmation is a wonderful thing. It can even come in different forms. Sometimes it is confirmation to let go. Sometimes it is confirmation to hold on.

I had both this week.

Yesterday, for the first time ever, I watched as a human being took her first breath of life. I saw two parents cry as 9months, almost 10, of frustration came to a close as ( Read more... )

 Oh, life is just crazy sometimes ( Read more... )