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[jessxxx]

DISCLAIMER:
In this disclaimer I am stating all terms of the following argument and the one that preceded it. If you choose not to abide by this disclaimer, it's on you, not me.

Keep in mind that I'm angry right now. I am posting on live journal simply because I don't want to single anyone out, therefore creating an uncomfortable situation for

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pardon my bluntness

[mimsytoves]

how bout we forget about all this bullshit and all hang out again.
i realize the message doesn't apply to me but it involves you guys. and as far as you guys go, i never thought something as petty as a gas issue would get in the way of anything. and i know you don't intend it to.
so seriously. i miss you guys and want to see everyone in one place again.

Re: pardon my bluntness

[fat_cat_is_cool]

well put, krista! :)

dont make me kick your ass, bacon...

[lilcaseyurine]

i dont want to hear shit from the peanut gallery considering your bitch ass never kicks it with me.
you are going DOWN next time i see you.

...and i didnt mean it like that, perv...
xo <3

Re: dont make me kick your ass, bacon...

[fat_cat_is_cool]

casey. i didn't mean it like that at all. i just meant i agree with krista in that i wish none of this had to happen and everyone could just chill. word?

you know i always have nothing but love for you, casey!

and i agree about kicking it. that's why i called you today after work, yo! but of course ericca had to be getting married n shit. haha.

[jessxxx]

thanks for your response. i miss you too, krista, and we definitely should hang out again. this was never meant to be "petty bullshit" about gas money--it was about appreciation for the fact that we (those with cars) go out of our way to help others (those without cars). i don't care about money. i just don't want to feel taken advantage of, especially by my best friends. i love you all and don't mind helping out, but don't take it for granted.

...and im not happy and im not sad...

[lilcaseyurine]

i find it amazing that i am ALWAYS somehow connected to being at fault. its also amazing that when someone says they are unhappy with something, that they can come thisclose to losing all their friends

[lunacystar]

when i read your initial post, i assumed it was about me simply because i'd gotten a ride from you the night before, had given no gas money, and made you wait outside while i gathered the stuff i kept forgetting to bring to casey. i'm the kind of person that generally assumes i've fucked up and that people are mad at me, so it seemed perfectly logical to me that what you said was directed at me. and i'm not going to lie, at first i was a little angry and kind of embarassed because i felt like a moocher or whatever, and i really hope that's not how i am. of course, i know nothing about driving or the costs of it, but i also felt like what was said (when i thought it was directed toward me) was unfair because, as you stated above, i rarely get rides from you. i didn't really feel like i had to apologize for it, but in like token, though i was a rather hurt by what i thought you were saying, i also didn't want to start shit over something stupid. so i decided that the best thing i could do was shut up and be conscious of what you had

[lilcaseyurine]

Does this mean that everyone is over it?

[lunacystar]

i hope so!

Love,
Tara

[jessxxx]

tara: firstly, i just want to say that you're a fantastic writer! i've read some of your stories here and there, but even your posts are so well written!

anyway, don't worry. i didn't direct that post at you, and i'm sorry you took it that way. it was certainly never meant it that way. as far as i'm concerned, things between you and i are cool and i would definitely like to see more of you. my cell is 5863741 in case you don't have it, and i think you have the house number. call sometime when you're free and we can watch movies or go thrift store shopping or do other random stuff<333

[stardustjuliet]

We didnt talk much when you were at nattys, but i wasn't doing it because i was mad. And i didnt "talk shit" to anyone. I told casey about the email when she called me on saturday, because i found out she hadnt been to work on friday and i thought i better mention it just in case you hadnt and then i would have looked like a jerk for not warning her that it would be there on monday. Then i explained that i was upset, but that i knew where you were coming from, i just wished that i knew who it was really directed at because as i said to you, leaving it up in the air led everryone without a car to speculate, when did i fuck up? I dont think your wanting to be appreciated for doing good things for people is wrong AT ALL. I jsut wrote you a civil email(i did not intend to sound bitter, i was just stating my point of view on the situation) because i didnt want it to sound like i was correcting you in front of everyone, i jsut wanted to privately express my point of view of the situation to you, the person i wanted to talk to and not hurt.

[jessxxx]

chels, the thing that upset me most is that you chose my WORK email to write to me. i have two other email addresses for personal use; everything going in or coming out of my work email is read by the higher-ups. granted you didn't say anything that could get me in trouble, but it could have been really bad. i didn't want to single anyone out simply because of the way things went with casey and natalie--everyone got dragged into it, and i figured if i put it in the open it would be less accusational. everyone chose to take it the way they took it. i had hoped you would all know me better than to assume i was pointing fingers and snapping at everyone; i thought my post was rather civil and reasonable. since we are all adults, i figured i could state my feelings without everyone getting all defensive--once again, why i used live journal--but evidently i was wrong. pardon me for sounding like a bitch right now, but i'm upset. i'm to the point of retracting everything i said and acting like nothing ever happened, because it's obvious no

[stardustjuliet]

I honestly dont want to discuss this subject or any other sensitive subject on livejournal any more. I really dont think we are gonna get anywhere with this if we dont talk face to face. I want to get over this defensive talk and get to the working it out and trying to see where everyone is coming from. Maybe we can have a sit down-chill-out-talk out friendly style this weekend, because you are right nothing is coming from this. If we keep communicating via livejournal i fear that we wont ever feel any better about this and even if we say we will forget about it and move on, it still happened and shit always gets rehashed if its not resolved. My grandparents are hear until saturday so i cant really promise anything for before that. I think maybe saturday night or something. What works for you??

[jessxxx]

hmm...saturday morning i have to go to the post office and to pick up my new contacts, but i think that's it. not entirely sure though. and i have to see my dad at some point over the weekend because i'll be gone for father's day. in any case, call me. i'm totally down for a "group therapy" session :) i'll bring the nerf bats! lol