another dreary monday

[jestagrrrl]

I dont wanna be here, i get so depressed on the drive to work, and i just can't pinpoint it. I dont know whether its because of the drive, or because I can't stand my job, or what...I just am in a series of blahs about this job and i cant get out of the funk

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[badboi_chris]

I do know what you mean about your job. I've felt like that here and at other jobs and that's usually the beginning of the end for me. I find something better soon afterwards because I can't handle the stress/depression. Maybe you can look around and see what else is out there? Where I work now has greatly improved (they promoted me and gave me more money, so that shuts me up..lol). If there's no way for you to add something new to your current job or get promoted, then I would definitely look around for something else. Hey, but at least you have a GREAT home life. You know, that means so much and there's nothing better than coming home and feeling loved.

i know what you mean

[jestagrrrl]

and that is what scares me, the feeling of the end...i would love to work closer to home, but up in H town they cant compare to the pay i receive working in baltimore. I really don't know what to do, i mean i'm almost here a year and i cant afford to just walk out, even thought sometimes during the day i feel like breaking down and telling them to go fuck themselves...but i'm serious...
so here i sit, waiting to see if it gets better and sending out resumes in the meantime...but it gets so frustrating...
Heather is really great, i love coming home to her, but i feel like i'm just sometimes dragging around all these mixed up thoughts and my mind is consumed with this shit instead of i guess, relaxing and enjoying each and every minute.
I do alot of talking to myself...but I wouldnt trade my home life for the world...

Re: i know what you mean

[badboi_chris]

Sometimes it has helped me in the past to "not give a damn" for a little while and just do the bare minimum. If you're not being appreciated, then they don't deserve anything extra from you.

Re: i know what you mean

[badboi_chris]

i would love to be that way, but unfortunately, what i do, affects everyone, i.e. clients, depositions, court reporters, and decisions made by the court, if i decide to "not care". God I would love to not give a shit. One of the grrls here said dont let it get to you, this is only a job, and you should not make them feel inferior...but its hard..i take everything seriously, whether jokingly or not, and i would love to have the "fuck it" attitude...i think it just comes down to working for men...and the controlling factor...

god i would love to just be blase' about everything...I mean it is only a job, but its a job i need ya know...
sorry for rambling...but thank you for listening..i appreciate it more than you know...