Burnt Out

[jesterkungfu]

So yeah I've been in a very weird mood the past few days. I'm starting to feel that I'm in college to accomodate what the man wants me to do to survive in this capitalistic, cracked out, money, money, money, type of lifestyle. It just seems that no matter what I do I'm left burnt out with a pissed off mom, dad, family...it doesnt matter, everyone

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[2nd_story_man]

Waking up can be painful when certain muscles are so underused that they have atrophied. Remember that time I was all paralyzed and fucked up from the neck down? I had to learn how to walk again. I had to learn how to trust again, how far and who and how not to show the desperation for help when I was in such pain. Well it's the same way with what you have now in life. The Man wanted some of us to remain on the bottom to keep the wheels running from there. Well, that's where some of us seem to do best. We are told we do best there, like it's some kind of fucking obligation to live a certain way, think a certain way, you know? Well people who are in your environment are told that it is best to follow the leader, that you are supposed to think and behave in certain ways and hey, you know what? It's you and your peers who keep the wheels in the middle going. You want to turn wheels? Have fun. You want to roam free? You got my support.

[2nd_story_man]

Oh and to be quite frank with you, I used to be able to respect the System and what is generally accepted as right or wrong, the norms and the deviants. Statistics about 2 stories in suburbia, minivans and 2.5 kids, multiple marriages, bouts of alcoholism, cocaine abuse, bankruptcy and redemption through looking, dressing, thinking, talking, believing, praying to what is just taken for granted as the right thing, the right way, the right whatever without one single second of questioning, because questioning slows you down and makes you depressed--were something I and many others could view as the bar. Whether you're above, below or outside of the bar, that was a line of standard set in stone. Well I realized something years back. The System is gay. The System is gayer than gay's ability to be gay. I saw it. I watched the System be that gay. The System is gayer than Motley fucking Crue.