Ouch, my pyche fell down, and it can't get up.

[jestr_]

I've been trying to deny it, but reality can no longer support my delusions. Lately I've been having a great deal of difficulty getting anything done. I've been up, down, and sideways and in general feeling pretty confused; I've also been making some bad decisions. Needless to say my productivity is waaay down and I'm not feeling well mentally/

Comments

[el_pinko_grande]

Could it just be the added stress of working and all the drama with gigs and the quartet and so forth? You seem to be functioning well professionally, at least.

[jestr_]

I've been looking at that, it has been stressful lately but I've been way more stressed at certain points over the last year than I am now and I was handling them much better. Could be a combination of things, its allways difficult to tell.

[melchoir]

perhaps u need some break from all these recent gigs. Maybe travel? take camping trip ni the nearby mountains, i find beaches at moonlight being quite relaxing.

Or is it like motivation. I find it hard to focus on things this day and age too. Its either motivation, cause i focus on WoW fine. Perhaps its time to move to a different city? i sometimes look for for "resets" in life.

[jestr_]

It a combination of things I'm sure. I've had alot of stress over the last year, my current situation isn't really the worst I've been in, yes theres some shit coming down but there also some kickass stuff coming up. For me there's really two kinds of funks, one is related to my situation and can generally be improved by doing something like going to the beach or changing some pattern in my day. The second, doesn't seem to respond to any stimuli, positive or negative. In terms of bi-polar it's part of the cycle. When your'e manic, everythings great, no matter how bad things are. When you're depressive, you could be on top of the world eating Ice Cream and you feel like shit.

It's not hopeless, the two different states require different solutions. Since sitting on the beach or other such tactics don't work, it signals to me that this isn't the right course. I need to scrape up the money and go see my doctor.

Or I could just smoke some weed ;)

[metamorphi]

(((hugz)))

It'll get if figured out.
You made it this far... right?

Could be something simple.
Talking with your doctor is a good idea.
I'll cross my fingers, toes, eyes and nose that more is revealed swiftly. :)

[wulfgar_toy_guy]

Well, my friend, it seems you have at least the idea of what to do in hand. And, at least for me, that's half the battle for trying to fix my "moods".

Either that or lists. I love making lists.

In any case, let me know if if you need anything.
We're all here for you.
Except Graham... cause he's a Commie.
And Melchior... cause he's one of 'em four-eigners.

;)