don't know why i'm up this early, but i'm gonna say it's a good thing and have more coffee. i walked to l'hopital and still here's me 45 mins erly for christ's sake. i had this x-ray yesterday for gettin my teeth of wisdom removed (figgers) and the woman was a FUCKING BITCH. she TOLD, not asked, PRICKESHLY DEMANDED i take out all my piercings, ( Read more... )

i feel like a steaming turd pile. but i'm not going to complain and whine. it's so dark out. soon, i hope to get a computer. i almost have enough saved. then, i will feel like an adult. or i might never leave my house again, we'll see. and speaking of steaming piles of turd, i started volunteering at the spca, walking dogs. it's sweet, but ( Read more... )

we met a girl who lives on my floor. she came over with weed. then, we picked pears. from this park, we had to fight off the birds. were they starlings? i don't know from birds. also, lovely red apples were plucked from a tree, plucked until a mean old sour lady came out and harumphed at us. greedy, greedy bitch. fernwood sure is going to ( Read more... )

a little lonely, that is. when the lady is away, ruby will play, if playing means sitting around and pining. or ruby gets drunk and does karaoke ( Read more... )

seems i haven't updated my journal in a while ( Read more... )

there's supposed to be pictures with my last entry but i've been denied somehow. i think i violated some terms or something at geocities where i uploaded the pictures. why do they hate me? i don't hate them. i love them. last night i dreamt i was a young boy who became the favourite disciple of the dalai lama, but then i let him down somehow ( Read more... )

with my love

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still, in this parallel universe i stumbled into. i'm almost at the point where it feels like my real life, not a borrowed one. maybe the other shoe isn't going to drop after all. now that i've discovered that contrary to previous belief, i actually can love and can be loved, it's as though the world is, catastrophic yes, but also beautiful ( Read more... )

yep. love. spring. lighthouses. drama. goodly behaviours. badly behaviours. tendencies to desire. so very is the wonderful. but still, i have the trouble. to be expected. the scales are evening out, it's all that can be asked. i still haven't found a place to live, and not for lack of trying. must be patient. and, the body has breaks ( Read more... )

i dunno ( Read more... )