so i don't lose them when i delete my profile...

[jesusluvsjaeho]

you say
"you'll end up old and alone"
like it's an awful thing
like it's a terrifying thing
i stand
wondering why you use this
and realize
this is a fear of yours
not mine
this is a threat to you
not me

in a second
my world shifted, shattered
preconcieved notions mere tatters
remanents floating in the wind
what i was is no longer who i am
twist, turn
i am gone, gone, gone

so much wasted time
so many shadows of you
i ran in fear
only to stop, turn, watch you drift away
not by choice
not by plan
by circumstance and tragedy
come back to me, love
return if possible
touch me
hold me
love me once more
this time make it forever
or at least forty years

i know tis difficult to understand
a concept beyond your ken
don’t blame me
i grasp the joy of being single
not my fault you can’t
or perhaps won’t
i no longer care
freedom tastes sweet
sweeter than your kisses
feels delicious
more delicious than your touch

it slipped through my fingers
crashing, shattering to the ground
that dream of you, of me
of what we can never be
see the shards
crunching beneath your careless boot
see my heart
breaking beneath your thoughtless words
shift in time
watch the power of a new dream
flying like a phoenix from your ashes
envy the strength of a heart reborn
beating in time to rhythms you fail to hear