i'd like to hold my head up. and be proud of who i am. but they won't let my secret go untold. i paid the debt i owed them. but theyre still not satisfied. now i'm a branded man out in the cold.
registration for jeff state tonight.. maybe i'll see some people there. i'm kind of nervous about the whole thing. after seeing the classes i'm going to have to take. i've become apprehensive of my major. physics with cal 1 physics with cal 2 cal 1, 2, and 3 differential equations sounds tough.. but i guess hard work pays off.
it seems like someone took all the colors and mixed them together. and it's turned into this dull brown that i can't sort through. my mind won't let me see them for what they are.
nothing like a few minutes of skating to clear your mind. bombing hills in the neighborhood. just keeping it basic. but.. sucks doing that and trying to get over strep throat.. maybe that was a mistake cause i don't too well now.
i wish i wasn't so judgemental.. that is one of the regrets in my life. but that's the thing about life. most of the time you only get one chance. but i'm starting to work on it. and i hope i can be better about it. so i apologize for how i act. maybe everyone won't hate me before it's over.