Life...

[jetangel]

Man how life has changed, and it just keeps changing. I've found alot of answers, but found three times as much questions. It seems my life has to totally and utterly collapse for me to realize how much I need to fix it...over and over...

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[audny_albatross]

It's been forever since I last talked to you and I haven't exactly kept up to date with most of your entries over the past year, although I have come back every now and then to see how you're doing. Um... I know, a while ago, you wrote something like 'and I eventually realised she didn't care' in relation to me, and I know I was a really bad friend, but I did care. I did miss you over the past year, less so toward the end than toward the beginning, but I also didn't really know how to talk to you now that you were so far away and we weren't living the same kind of life

This is me talking to you ~obviously~

[jetangel]

Um... what to say. Maybe this wouldn't be so hard if I had actually went to sleep instead of still being awake at 5 in the friggin' morning. Woops, getting a bit off-track

Re: This is me talking to you ~obviously~

[audny_albatross]

I wanted to say something every time I saw you on aim, but like you I also didn't know how. You've probably noticed that I'm really bad at dealing with situations outside of my experience, and I avoid things that worry or frighten me or make me feel nervous. And I worried that now that you'd gone to college and gotten a bunch of new friends, you didn't need me anymore, and I should just fade away because that would be best for you. Also, you had an away message up a lot, so I felt like I shouldn't bother you. And then the times you didn't, I'd lose my nerve.

We should meet up sometime, yeah? I'll be getting a job soon (hopefully) and I have rehearsals three nights a week, but mornings and afternoons are generally free.