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So yea things havent been good or bad lately. Ive realized that there are alot of things that just dont seem to be going the way i hope for, or that maybe the way im hoping for things to go isnt really the best idea. One big thing is that ive noticed how many ppl that i used to tlak to that i dont even acknowledge anymore, ppl who actually seemed to be close to me and i at least tried to hang out with alot. I think im gonna try to fit time in and start hanging out with ppl who i havent spent time with in a while. I think its just i want to go back, cause right now i dont want to be thinking the way i am cause i can tell im gonna wind up hurting myself in the end...
I dont really know where im going in my life right now either. I feel as if im stuck in a huge rut and honestly nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I enjoy hanging out with everyone i do right now, but i cant ever seems to keep myself in a good mood for more than minutes before thinking of something that can really get to me. I mean i have plenty of social problem with ppl that i really dont feel like talking about (If you wanna know you can IM me, i might be up to talking) but I really dont see much of a productive future. It seems like im gonna end up working at the shop for a while cause right now im not sure what im gonna do once im out of college. Ill have a degree in computers but i dont know what aspect i wanna work with. Im gonna be lost and right now i jsut dont wanna thing about it. This is why lately ive been thinking about taking a semester off to step back and reflect on my life for a bit, do some side work and get money, maybe take a trip somewhere alone or with only a few ppl who really need to get away too. I havent been on a real vacation in forever. I feel so stressed and upset at times all i wanna do is get out of this state and to someplace nice so i can sit back and enjoy a nice relaxing day...
So yea things havent been good or bad lately. Ive realized that there are alot of things that just dont seem to be going the way i hope for, or that maybe the way im hoping for things to go isnt really the best idea. One big thing is that ive noticed how many ppl that i used to tlak to that i dont even acknowledge anymore, ppl who actually seemed to be close to me and i at least tried to hang out with alot. I think im gonna try to fit time in and start hanging out with ppl who i havent spent time with in a while. I think its just i want to go back, cause right now i dont want to be thinking the way i am cause i can tell im gonna wind up hurting myself in the end...
I dont really know where im going in my life right now either. I feel as if im stuck in a huge rut and honestly nothing seems to make me happy anymore. I enjoy hanging out with everyone i do right now, but i cant ever seems to keep myself in a good mood for more than minutes before thinking of something that can really get to me. I mean i have plenty of social problem with ppl that i really dont feel like talking about (If you wanna know you can IM me, i might be up to talking) but I really dont see much of a productive future. It seems like im gonna end up working at the shop for a while cause right now im not sure what im gonna do once im out of college. Ill have a degree in computers but i dont know what aspect i wanna work with. Im gonna be lost and right now i jsut dont wanna thing about it. This is why lately ive been thinking about taking a semester off to step back and reflect on my life for a bit, do some side work and get money, maybe take a trip somewhere alone or with only a few ppl who really need to get away too. I havent been on a real vacation in forever. I feel so stressed and upset at times all i wanna do is get out of this state and to someplace nice so i can sit back and enjoy a nice relaxing day...